Rocking Week!!!!!!

Although Compu third years are expected to sogg around the whole year, crying for assignments, deadlines but one needs a change. And this was what inspired me to bunk a whole week of classes and go home. So here is what the last few days had been for me:

As I had to go home, I had to show assignments early and my lab partner had done something incredible in his clothes washing spree and thus had to rush home to get it mended. I was left alone to complete the damm assignmnets and that too before the deadline. So it took two nightouts in the lab but finally completed them. It was the first time that our group had done something before hand, while othres were trying to figure out whats to be done... enjoyed it.... wicked me!!!!

Aneways left for home the same night. Home is heaven. You get treated like kings, the food the bed and ofcourse the TV I love it!!!!! But had to leave for Vaishno Devi the same day. Trips to Vaishno Devi have always been a treat to soul and eyes. Treat to soul, you may understand but treat to eyes??? :D, boys will be boys and will always enjoy the treat to eyes no matter what the place is. It so happened that the 14 km climb from katra to darbar which normally takes about 4hrs was completed or let me say accomplished in 2.5 hrs straight. how???? See it was simple. Figure out a bandi and try to overtake her. This gives you enough adrenaline to go on for long. It was not until I reached the darbar that I realized that I hadn't come here for what I had been doing for the past 3 hrs or so. But as I said, boys will be boys, nothing can be done!!!

Aneways the weather was amazing. There were clouds but no rain. The cool breeze, views of the peaks and the fact that you yourself are standing at the level of clouds is enthrilling. The next day we left for shiv khodi, a place 90 kms from katra. Mindblowing caves. At one point I thought that it wouldn't be possible for me to get in since the path was really small and difficult but then as always happens, everybody was able to get through. Inside was a natrual shivling and idols fo may other gods and godesses. Never had seen any thing amazing as this.Then while having lunch I got what I had been desiring the last 3 days. Rain!!! Mountain rains are amazing and when you are having garam garam aalo puri and chai looking at the rains, feeling the snowy wind, you tend to think of something you really love and heres what I came with:

Knowing that its not possible, but still dreaming about her
that's love
Even after one year of 'no', still desiring her
that's love
Wishing she had been there to share all your joys and sorrows
that's love
Expectng her to be standing right there after every turn
that's love
Seeing a happy couple and imagining them to be you and her
that's love
Knowing she's not your ideal match but still if you want her
that's love

I have written this crap here to dump what I really feel. I know you all would be laughing but then Say what u like, do as u feel.. cuz the ppl who matter dont mind & the ppl who mind dont matter!

Back home I saw Iqbal. Nice movie. Really liked that song Aashayein.... lyrics are damm good and so is the music.... here are a few lines I really like..... kuchh aisa karke dikha, khud khush ho jaye khuda and toofano ko cheerke, manzilo ko cheen le...

Aneways now back to kgp but yesterday was our hall day. I am not comfortable with the idea of girls visiting my room. Call it shyness, call it anyting but I can't do it. So I comforabely avoided all those who passed by and all those whom I was supposed to invite. But finally the end of the evening rocked. Danced our hearts out and then I saw Rang de basanti again. As I am writing this blog the guy next door is watchinng RDB at full volume, so I am enjoying it again :).

$@#$@#Drinking@##@$

I have been thinking of writing about this for a long time now. But today I am going to say my heart out without thinking what others might say or whether it hurts them. Why do people drinik? I don't understand what are the pleasures they derive out of it. I have myself tried it sometimes but didn't get the "kick" poeple tallk about. Maybe I didn't have enough but then I didn't feel like. Why would people drink?
They may drink when they are sad. It makes them loose control for a while and have a gala time. But whats the point in doing so. If you are not satisfied with where you stand then its you who is responsible for it. It would be better option to have things sorted out instead of being in a "happy happy" state for sometime and then reverting back to where you came from. I mean what good is one night of so called "happy state". This seems to be a very coward way dealing with your troubles, not dealing rather escaping from them.
People drink when they want to say things of their heart to someone close. Poeple drink to open their mouths. What I want to say is that are you so weak or so coward that you can't face the other person in normal state. What is that you can't say when you are in full control of yourselves. If you don't like somebody, then tell him on his face, don't talk to him, but whats the point in coping with him and then resenting this relation at the end of the day. If you wanna tell anybody to go to hell then tell him at his face. No point leading a life which gives zero satisfaction. If you wanna confess something then do it when you are normal. But then you need to be brave. Most poeple dread what will others think if they would come to know these things about me. I say Why the hell u care abt them. Be brave and do what ur heart tells you and not your mind.
People drink when they wanna celebrate. Whats the point? If you wanna celebrate then do good to others. I have seen many "daaru treats". I dont see the point. If someone's happy for you them it shows in their face and not when they accompny you to your drinking spree. If you wanna celebrate, just give a call home and tell them that you are happy today. Call your sis or bro whom you love the most, even if she/he is sitting anywhere in the world, even if its 3 in the moring there, they will all be happy for you and will add to your state. If u really wanna do something "hatke" on this day, then call someone whose heart you had broken a long time a ago and you have this guilt of not breaking the ice from the then. Break this ice and you will be happier. If you want this day to be different than others then take a flight home, surprise your parents and come back the next day. Instead of spending huge sums on meaningless treats, have a simpler one and use the extra cash to ensure that someone out there who's begging for food is able to have it atleast for one day. Donate some amount when you are happy. You will never feel more satisfied. Do something for your community, something for your country, that will make a difference. If there's no tempo of doing the above stuff, then atleast watch Rang De Basanti!! I am sure it will make a difference.

I am not totally against drinking. But all this was meant for those who have started to derive pleasure out of it, or don't know the reason why they drink, but still do. Its my point of view, but will be rather interesting to know what others might have in mind.

*Although I have talked a lot, but I haven't done all the above mentioned things. This is what I think should be ideally done. I am not perfect. I try to be like above. Strictly my views. If any of you think that you are better off then I dont have a say in that. I am not asking you to change.

200 things you might have done

Here's a list of 200 things that I saw on many blogs. This one is mine. The things that I have done are in a different colour.
My score is 30/200 @ 20 which may be reagrded a "dull life". Got to do a lot of stuff :D !!!!!

01.Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula.
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said ‘I love you’ and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game.
17.Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby’s diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight – hailstones, not snow
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run( equivalent anyway)
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states(or 27-28?)
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government’s official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving.
63.Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to “Let’s Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don’t regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who’s not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played Counter-Strike(game was D&D) for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn’t have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place :D
107. Got so drunk you don’t remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. …more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication –Imzine :P
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone’s heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph (greater than 100 kmph anyway )
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than Indian states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. …and gotten 86′ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196: Dyed your hair
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal –yeesh!
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested

I wish this list keeps on increasing :).

Suddenly got this idea of some more things that I have done and are not in the list:-
201. watched the same movie more than 30 times

202. stole money from mom's purse and then got caught

203. taking a nude picture of someone you know and live with.... by chance, but filming someone(s) naked, having a bath was intensional :D

204. listened to the same song more than 1000 times over a period of one week... actually did it with two songs

205. being a member of a gang of about 40 people, all of whom once went to a lecture wearing only black clothes and had the proffesor commenting on them.... it was really nice... the link for the pic is here.

206. 35 feet above the ground on a layer of tables and a chair.... see it (its me in the white shirt)

207. had unusually GRAND sidelocks... here , well finally they were bigger than these

208. had hots for a teacher.... although a long time back...... wiredoooo

209. being dressed as opposite sex(in my case a girl) and performing on stage.... :)

can't think of any thing else right now... maybe tinni u can help :D, aneways the score goes to 39/209.... an uneventful life, but still a wired one.

Examination

Well this word might strike terror amongst many of you but for an "general IIT chokra" like me it sounds like something bothreing, besetting, discomforting, disobliging.......... why??? let me tell you....
The story started an year a ago when my implausibly fat and wired looking wingmate MiSteR Google Mehra had written this blog. That time I was a chota sa sudhra hua bacha... and I didn't understood why do poeple get frust over exams.... but as the number of days left for me to live started decreasing since then, I am coming to realization with the terms. Since now I am in the same place as he was an year a ago I can feel the pain.... in the ass!!!
The courses this sem except AI are useless and the jaaaavvvvvaaaa( yes this is the way our prof says java :D, I wish blogger supported voice becuz then I would have made mangu, one of my classmates, do the act... ) course is totally driving me mad.... aneways these days I have been trying hard to stdy but no avail.... so heres a list of things i do to pass away the precious time....

• Blogs, they are my favourite pass time... in the last few days I have read ample of them and my subscription list has grown double the size... and here i am sitting in the compu lab.....( came here to study :D) writing another one... while the 9.5's in front of me are busy studying.... pata nahin kaise magte rehte hain yaar yeh dono... I wish tinni u were a girl :), to fhir shayad hum dono bhi lab main saath saath baith kar pad rahe hote... he he

• My sleeping habits have improved enormously.... I got to bed about 12.... wake up at 8 and then again take a nap in the afternoon... the typical acche bache ki tarah... my mom would be happy if I told her this.

• now to while away time i have come up with this idea of having bath everyday!!!! don't be surprised... an average iitian doesn't bath everyday... hey SN hall doesn't count.... but I feel nice... I feel clean.... and now I don't have to hurry after taking a bath.... recently found the can of "ponds talcum powder" lying around in the almirah, I had bought it in first year but remained unused but now from the last 2-3 days I am using it every day... accha lagta hain be dinbhar..... even found that bottle of "brut"... bhaskie ke room se maari thi... see I am ek dum chamakta dhamakta aajkal

• I finished 3 seasons of friends and there are two more to go... yes they are much better than those monotonic video lectures......
  

• from the last two days it has been happening that I get frust by the evening nad with such mast wind blowing in the night.... it doesn't relly feel like studying... so day before yesterday played a prank on DPC on the dep mail and yesterday to hadd hi ho gayi.... Tinni bechare ki maar li... he he.... aur vo galat time pe galat scrap... aur vo fhir sahi time pe id hack hona... mazza aa gaya kal to yaar... vaise vi id kisne hack kiya tha yaar... i feel its arpit... aage pata nahin...but kamal tha yaar

• hmmm I have been making it a point that since i am working so hard these days so I should have good food... so in the evenings I don't eat in the mess but try to go out... day before yesterday went to waldies... yesterday went to PD... and aaj to mess hi band hain... see aaj to legal bahana hain bhara khane ka :D....
  

• library is also a nice pass time too but since i can't do it without music... that option is kaanta...but pata nahin log kehte hain ki vahan exams ke dino main bahut mazza aata hain... aaj vo bhi try karke dekhte hian...

Well mere itne acche vichar sunne ke baad to aapko lag hi gaya hoga ki mera padne ka koi mood nahin hian filhaal... abe kuchh karo mera varna kya hoga... abe koi to tempo de do.... :-<

Huh!!!!!

Well the title is what I say to someone when he says its Valentine's Day. Seriously even before KGP I was like this andI haven't changed any bit.
But then I was thinking of writing something about this so called "special day". Just a few moments back I stumbled onto Prakhar Da's blog and found it in perfect harmony with what I had in mind. So here's Prakhar Da for you. Do read , evaluate yourself, get inspired and enjoy!!!

Why?

Why is it that I always stop myself from commenting on certain blogs. I usually comment when I like the post... when its of my type... thats its no deep kavi... or shero shayri types... just the fun stories... or senti insights... may be I am afraid of restarting that thing all over again....
Its better to remain quiet and observe as compared to doing something and then expecting a result...I feel its more peaceful this way... yes I feel better now... I am doing the right thing and I will continue doing it... its hard to resist the temptation but then I know what I want and thats peace of mind... good going Udit
Aneways I have got bored of this template... its too old now... I had thought of giving a new template as a gift to my blog on its B'Day last week but didn't have enough time... If any of you know some links to nice templates then please do leave them in the comments section

People

Well I have been observing for long now and have come up with the following:

There are people:

• who know their weaknesses, but still hope that they will get the best and get disappointed when the obvious happens.
• who know there weaknesses, but are satisfied with what they achieve
• who know there weaknesses, are satisfied with what they achieve, but always strive to achieve better
  
• whom you call friends, and they are. They are the ones whom you can except to be by your sides when the situation demands.
• whom you call friends, but neither you nor he may remember the other one after say 20 years
• whom you call friends, just for the sake of it. You are just acquainted and pass a smile when ever you happen to see other.
• whom you call friends, but are not. I mean that there is a constant sense of competition between the two of with no one leaving a single chance to disprove the other. There is a constant thought.... Will he or will I.....
• whom you may call friends, but you admire them, you respect them and always try to learn from them.
• whom you call friends. You always try to help them out but then that feeling of bonding is not there
• whom you call friends, but this tag of friendship is due to some reason, which makes it just a burden.
• whom you despise that first look
• who get frustrated at the look of you doing something, try to imitate you, try to out do you and in the process never thinking what this may do to the relationship between you two.
• who are my favorite, in the sense when they get the above attitude from someone, they remain cool and help this other guy in doing what ever he wants to.
• who know their long term aims, but have no idea about what their short term aims have to be and thus in the end get lost.
• who don't know what their long term aims are but they know exactly what their short term aims are
• who have a clear idea about both, long term aims and the short ones.
• who give a hell to these aims and enjoy what ever comes their way
• who thinks that particular set of people should always do what he says, because he is the one who is always right
• who can go to any extent to get what ever they want.
• who get inspired and then succeed in their goal
• who get inspired but don't try hard enough
• who get inspired but that vanishes away very soon
• who observe the above types, mapping each one to a category above and then when they talk to this person they have a part of their brain constantly nagging them... He is of type number 27... talk to him like "this"...... and don't tell him "this"...... blah blah......

Well I am of the last type for sure :D!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Blog!!!! Although its belated wishes but I knew that you wouldn't mind my being late by a day or two. And as its your birthday I will take this oppourtunity to let you know that you are now an integral part of my life and to me you are same as any other friend or wing mate. You have always been there when I needed you and you have been a really nice listener. Even when no one's around I have the consolation that alteast you are there, willing to be on my side all the time. Its through you that I can freely express my thoughts, whether they may be about the people whom I miss or things that touch me or when I am really happy and even the times when I am really down. You give me the freedom to be Sarcastic and Reflective at the same time. You serve as a log whereby which I can look back upon the sunny days of my life and have a nice laugh. Thanx Blog for being there. Hope you have many many Birthdays to come.

Well on a different note I would like to say that I have been really busy from the start of the semester but now its all over. I can back to normal now. It really feels nice to blog after all that hectic days. But still theres a long way to go. Assignments pending, class tests and what not. But thats a part of the IIT package. You got to enjoy what you have without desiring for every other "thing" see but then theres nothing wrong in aiming for the stars. All I want to say is

Before the right Time and without Effort you will not achieve anything. But then its your responsibility to keep trying and work hard because eventually your time will come.

Dairy Milk Choclate..... :D

Well it happened one morning that while looking for some stuff on lan I found a folder saying "Cadbury Ads". Bas baap apni to nikal padi tab.... really all the ads are simply fantastic... all of them aired a long time back but are real classics...


The best among them is the one where a girl has mehendi on her hands and tries to eat a Dairy Milk... the music is really nice... kuchh khas hain hum sabhi main... kuchh baat hain hum sabhi main.. it gets u there and combined with the innocent expressions given by the girl, it becomes hard to resist a Dairy Milk.





The second one is the one where people are shown cheering the indian cricket team... wow the music is again fantastic.... and the screenplay is mind blowing.... Hum ko yeh kisne chooaa hain..... jadu se yeh kya hua hain..... khel ka rang chane laga hain..... dil ki dhadkan badane laga hain.... andaz badle hue hain... charo taraf mastiyaan hain.... Cadbury Dairy Milk...... Mazza aa gaya. I really like the part when in the end India wins the match and one of the guy starts offering the chocolate to one of the players behind the screen and tries to kiss him :D...... really worth watching.

Then there are other ones which are based on the theme "main khush hoon aaj khaamakha".... masto hain.... the music again is good but the high point of the ad comes when Big B comes in.... the best part of the Ad is when Big B asks a person for his mobile to make a call and afterwards that person is shown in a halo state admiring his phone... the tune of the ad really gets u.... "main khush hoon aaj khaamakha.."

And then When I tell Tinni of this stuff, he reminds me of another classic Ad... remember the one..."Doodh doodh piyo glass full".... it was not on the lan, Tinni dld it, but worth the effort.

All the above Ads set u in happy mood and you can watch them over and over....
Can you suggest me some classic Ad which you really like since I am making a collection of such stuff to keep forever.

Happy New Year

With New Year round the corner its celebration all around. But have we ever thought that why do we celebrate this special day? Well the reason that I can think of is to celebrate all the happiness and the so called "things" that this wonderful year has given us and wishing that the coming year brings us the same happiness and joy....

Well there are a lot of things that this specific year has given me....

• This year gave me wonderful wingmates who seem the best people around... I always feel a sense of security when they are near by and its great spending time with them... and a very special mention for Jadda here as he bears my continuous nagging without any complain
  
• This year gave me a special friend... we shared the same sorrows and the same joys but unfortunately not the same grades. Talking of friends, I have been really fortunate that I have managed to make a lot of them.
  
• It gave me two Bhabhis and one jijaji.. he he
  
• It also gave a special person whom I will remember for a long time to come.
• It gave me this blog, which has always been there with me, just like a true friend.
• It gave me a terrific summer vacation.... :D
• It brought me more closer to my family...... yes its really great feeling
• It has given me an wonderful opportunity for the next summers and I sincerely hope it materializes
• It brought about that wonderful treat in Cal and too on my Birthday....
• It gave me my first nehli last sem... but looking at this sem all thats is spoiled... but still no regrets....
• Yes, I forgot this one..... Thanx Tinni.... this year brought about the revelation of neha19fdelhi.... yups that was me.... I had been talking to one of my close buddies or say roommate( :D) last year as a girl from Delhi.... and then it had a fantastic end.... this is not for every one as he would kill me.... but ya living with tinni always gives you these ideas...
  
• Recently I learned to drive a bike.... and I tell you its really wonderful when you drive to 90 degrees in a pitch dark night... limited petrol... jungle on both side... and a long road ahead of you... it really seems like a dream coming true....
• It has given me those short short moments to which I may turn back to in near future and get inspired and feel happy.
  
• And last of all there are a expectations and hopes from the coming future( like I just hope and expect that I will by a Ipod next year.... he he)
  

no no leaving jokes apart this year has been the best year of my life and there is some time still left... it has given me soooo much.... thanx 2005 and I hope the coming year has even more to offer

Happy New Year !!!!
May this year bring in your life all the happiness you desire.

Instant Search

Yahoo has released its instant search. Although in Beta version but its still some heck of a thing. As you type in the text it shows relevent results side by side before even you press the search button. COOL!!!!.. It will be a real asset once the full version is released but its worth trying now.. try typing in some very very common stuff and u will see how its works.... the link is this...

And one more thing... I really like the people at Yahoo have presented it ... the first line on the site says Why feel lucky when you can be right... he he .. thats really nice and witty... anyways this all is good for us as we are the people who are going to be the most benefitted from these soft wars.. go on..

Back

Well I have come back to Kgp early this time..... was getting bored and moreover missing my comp... a life without comp seems impossible now...
anyways I had planed to do many things and have already started at them... I have created a new blog, where I will be posting any new C funda which I collect. The fundas may be rather simple to u all but are new to me and in order to document these all at one place the blog seems to be an nice option... your comments at any of the problems would always be entertained... knowledge always increases by sharing...

anyways while browsing today I found a really nice quote..

If you are not hiding anything, you are not trying

An Apology, My Love

It was due from a long time. I think it was summers that all this had started.
I really had been so careless and didn't think about the consequences.
I think I should have given her more respect initially.
U mean so much to me and I really didn't gave it a Damm!!!! hhhuuuff
Aneways all what I want to say
is that I am really sorry for all that happened
and I mean it....
yes from the bottom of my heart
I know that sometimes I really played the fool with U
but I really didn't meant anything wrong or offensive...
I always Loved u and will continue to do so...
U are my first love... do u know that????
But it seems that
to you all are equal...
U don't have anything special for me
that really sucks!!!!
but lately I haven't been nice and i know that...
But what I just want from ur side...
is to admit that u too have feelings fro me..
its really important...
I wanna spend my whole life with u.....








I know a did a mistake by not shutting down u for more than a month(What !!!!!!!!!!)
yes shutting down
u didn't deserve to work so hard for nothing
and what would have I done had something happened to u...
I am sorry darling
U are my Comp.... and u know very well that i can't live without u
and I Love U..... my first love :D
I swear that in future I will do nothing to hurt u....
I love u babes :-*

:(

Really after makhoing two exams in a row, the tempo is really down... a bad grade in one and not so grade in other means the grade sheet will not look nice this time ....
I know I shouldn't get dishearten but this was not the case with me...... 2 exams in a row are a too much. There is immense pressure now to perform in the remaining two dep subjects(OS + Compilers) he he.... I know thats a really difficult task.... but got to to do it.... otherwise my semester would be F***ed. Any way I am in a really dejected state now and don't know what to do.... may be study or maybe sleep.... arrey yaar wish me luck for the 2 remaining big ones.... I really need it.

Current state: Demoralized
Current position: locked in my room, I find really hard to face other people who think I always do well :-( and fan on full speed in this winter season
Current song: Arrey ruk ja re Bande(Indian Ocean) because it has got that pain in it

In remembrance!!!!!!!!!!!

someone is gone.

its so sad!!!
who?
who has passed??
1/3 of me.
what!!
yes my life has been two-third.
how come??
ASSIGNMENTS are OVER.
yes the assignments are over.
so y 1/3
1/3 yahoomial
and the other 1/3 is blogging
yes till now there were only 3 things
but today
submitted the last code.
just now.
buhut frust kiya baap.
ayesha takia ki photo vi main lagake code likha

tab jake kuchh likhne
ka man kara :D
coded parser generators...
opened files, wrote them read them
but NO USE.
yes no use.
why??
use YACC
use open(),lseek(),read(),write()
done nothing special
leave this compu science crap.
after the toiling of 4 loooooong months
finally theres peace
i can have a realxed nap.
i will go home after 4 months
WOW!!!!!
will meet friends.
mummi ke haath ka khana
see i start dreaming
but the exams are near
when??
monday...
baap re
mugna shuru karna padega
aaj nahin yaar
abhi joey.
yes JOEY rocks man.
here i go

this is what assignment load can do to a normal living being. Damm them!!!!!! They are OVER. Time to celebrate.

The Best Moments of my Life

Well in response to KK's post here are some best moments of my life:

• hearing that ring tone, that specific one, when dad calls.
• sitting and enjoying mom oiling my hair
• waking up, with that favourite song still in the air
• on getting "kadi" in the lunch
  
• at 4 in the morning, when purshottam steams into platfrom number 2
• that rick ride early in the morning from bus station to back home
• when my mom tells me about X bhiya or didi having an affair and I tell her that I knew from the past n years and its you who came to know just now
• calling home with no reason, just hearing everyone speak from the other side
• coming back from RK-RP road and watching that sheshnag high up in the air(last years' illu)
• tempo shout after illu
• wishing diwali, hugging everyone u meet
• wingis coming and consoling me whenever I am down
• calling my cousins and nagging them over their to be spouses
• joy on mom's face when i reach home
• when my dadi tells me that she is proud of me
• when my sister looks up to me as role model
• when I meet my coaching tutors or even school teachers back home
• taking mom to market for those daily chores
• she smiling back at me when I said sorry
• when my cousins reveal their secret affairs to me
• when my sister back in some part of world mails me n times a day and we talk as if we are at home
• when any of my friend gets a internship or training then the look of joy and satisfaction on his face
• teaching those second years to tie diyas and seeing the same passion in their eyes
• when i hear the song Lafzon Main Keh Na Sako
• when all my cousins call in and say "abey yaar tu aaja function pe varna maaza nahin aayega"
• when my mom hugs me on my way back to KGP

what are yours???

ILLU 28/10/05

Hey I just uploaded some illu pics. Click on the title.

ILLU 24/10/05

Well the long awaited post has come. Sorry for the delay Hari, but really couldn't find the time with all the assignments and the illu work. Today was officially the first day that we started tying diyas on the chatai and it felt really nice, specially it brought back the memories of previous year when I was on the mess top.

I along with reddy am incharge of a chatai at mess top. Its really hard to control your desire for tying the diyas because I feel like doing all the work myself alone. But I have to teach the second years how to do it and give them a chance to do it. And really they have picked up well on the first day. There has been a transition from the stage when was told to the stage when I am in control. These second years were looking up to me to correct them at every step, reminding me of the time when I used to say "dhammo kaisa banda hain, arre ishu batao kaise theek kare".
Suddenly I have been given responsibility of something big and sincerly hope that I live up to it.

I will be making a blog with all the illu pics once I get time.

chalo bbye for now,
hope I am able to find time tomorrow to write again.

WTF

Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all

Life really isn't fair.It has happened with me twice and as they say

Life is just one thing over and over.

The feeling that you get after being dumped for the felony you didn't commit is atrocious.The only words that you can think of are

WTF

.The damage is permanent since the other person looses the trust in you and its really difficult to bring it back to same level.It can never be the same again :-< .
Well what you can do is convince the him/her that it was not u who played the fool or you can comfortabely sit and do nothing since you feel that have done nothing.But when the other person is your loved one and his ignorant attitude is unbearable you really feel like killing yourself.
Its the second time that it has happened with and I wonder that how many times more will it hurt me again.Does it has something to do with my attitude???Am i too selfish???or the fact that i keep nagging everybody everytime makes them to believe that it was me???Well i really don't know and at this point of time i don't feel like talking to anybody.
I think i should change myself.

If Only

Hey don't get scared.What follows is not the regular programming stuff as expected from an "pre-asumed maggu prani" in the midst of exams but is something hatke.
While going through Shaunak's thoughts on "If Only" got an idea of doing as follows:

What would u do if u know that today is the last day of ur life????

I would certainly be calling all the loved ones back at home
apologizing to all specially to my wing mates for all the wired stuff i keep doing
hoping for rain so that i can enjoy a nice rainy 2.2 walk
will have a feast by borrowing money from someone in the wing :))


Now its ur turn to speak.Plz do so by leaving comments.

Lafzon main keh na sako.... bin keh bhi reh na sako

Don't go for the title ...... just that the song has an big influence on me

Found these interesting quotes..... the order .... ahhhhh leave it

Think about a woman. Doesn't know you're thinking about her. Doesn't care you're thinking about her. Makes you think about her even more.

The essence of love begins when infatuation ends.

It is best to love wisely, no doubt ,but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all.

The important thing was to love rather than to be loved.

Sometimes when we are generous in small, barely detectable ways it can change someone else's life forever.

.There is no remedy for love but to love more.

My Dil Goes ummmm ummmm mmmm........

I think that it has been my longest break from blogging.What was i doing all the time?????I really can't answer that because i for myself don't know ....but lets make some guesses.....

1.After being back to kgp, in a new wing with seniors,time seemed to fly.....the wing reamins high all the time and it appears that the other 13 except me have got no other work except to keep my names.....itchku....chiku...tidu....bitchku....arre bahi ek naam soch lo na.

2.I usually restored to my blog for condolence, but the last month i have been relatively happy.....or better haven't had the time to feel dejected....so no blogging...

But the reason behind me writing today is that this weekend has been exceptional...so here it goes....

FRIDAY:
had only two classes in the morning and slept thereafter...in the evening during one of my "naamkaran" sessions discovered that Hemant(the ruf n tuf baski player) had a soft heart inside....discussion started about romantic stuff and Hemant told us about how he had read "Love Story" while walking aroun M.G. road in bangi...wow!! .......Love Story hmmm thats a fantastic book and i remembered how in summers i couldn't simply put the book down and cried everytime i read it...then we started discussing Love Actually ....who likes which story.....why was this story better than that....and in the end inta tempo aa gaya ki aakhir kar movie dekh hi dali. Fhir in the night i was getting sento by remembering the "summer chaoses" and just then Hari buzzed....this banda is a god...he so nice...although he is 4 yrs senior to me and we only had an acquaintance that none of us remembers ver well, but still he talks as if we have been friends for ever....so i shared the "link" with him and after that kya tha...Hari bhi shuru ho gaye apne bare main....but it really helped me to get over that sento mood.Ab raat ke 3:30 baj chuke the but the romantic friday didn't stop here.It continued even in my sleep as i dreamt of "her".......

SATURDAY:
wow kya dream tha...man kar raha tha ki dobara so jaon but firstly neend nahin aa rahi thi and secondaly abhi ek accha khasa assignment bacha hua tha....hmmm but it was the perfect starting.....one point here that i had not even opened my books since last monday and desperately wanted to study....haan bahi padai karni thi....magar tempo nahin ban raha tha...but finaaly ab assignment banana tha to pad bhi liye thoda bahut.....but in the evening i was just jahndying around piyush room when i discovered they were watching "MonSoon Wedding"....kya mast movie thi....jitni bar dekho but man nahin bharta....lagta hain ki ghar ki shaid main ja rahe ho....and yes this sem after the engagement functions i have been feeling more close to my parents and home than ever...and make it point to talk to them twice a week rather than the scheduled one time....and yes the one thing i forgot about saturday was that friday night had seen heavy rains and saturday had ground on both sides of our block watter logged and the whole day weather reamined plesent adding to my mood..and yes saturday also saw the superspecial at mess and so got the best food since one month...

SUNDAY:
well by expected norms sunday till now has been a disaster since
1.Its around 5:00 now and i haven't brushed till now(don't worry i haven't eaten or drunk anything till now)
2.My assignment should have been completed yesterday but i finished it half an hour before
3.I haven't had a bath sice friday morning
4.I have a lot of things in mind but don't have the time to do them
5.I am wasting my precious time by writing a blog...

But still i am really happy and satisfied at this moment because
1.I am feeling really hungry and its snacks time
2.I have finally completed my assignment
3.i am smelling like a pig and will have to take a bath right now
4.Atleast now i am busy and not jhandying around although i should say very busy
5.Finally i am writing a blog
6.Today i am going to call home


I hope this mood continues for long but i am really sceptical since tomorrow the weekend gets over and with it brings 7 hours of classes starting at 7:30 and the submission of 2 assignments.....but i rather enjoy i the present...kal ki kal dekhenge.

Better part of Summer '05

Scorching heat, too much work, emotional turmoils, misinterpretted tickets and smiles, someone's acts of kindness were main features making the last of my sophomore days "memorable" and forcing me to go back with a rather heavy heart.
Queer behaviour and estrange attitude was the all i had to offer during the first week of my stay at home, doing nothing except reading and withinn a week i read Archer ,Dan Brown ,Danielle Steel.By the time second week came by i had already started to miss kgp and was thinking of coming back early....but then things turned around...came to know that bhiya and didi were having affairs and they had "enlightened" everybody at home about their intentions to settle down!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bhiya surprised me because it was not the same girl that he had shown me sometime before but didi's affair was quite surprising because i thought she was impeccable.
Any ways there was excitement in the air since their respective choices were approved and engagement dates were being planned out...my luck was still running high since 16th and 17th july were fixed for their respective engagements...ha just in time for me to return on the day of registration.
The remaining days went about in shopping and arranging caterers, booking hotels, looking after guests and what not....but the worst part was shopping , my deeds took 3 days to find a suit then matching chappals and then matching jewellery uuffff......
But the best part were the engagements itself....at first it felt very odd to call someone bhabhi....speaking truly i felt shy ,aneways it was really nice to realize that i have now become a devar and a sala too....danced really hard and made everyone in the family dance....
For the first time in 2 years i didn't want to come back to kgp and wouldn't have if there hadn't been non availability of tickets.It was really hard to control my emotions but i managed not to cry at home but as soon the bus moved tears started to roll down....
For the last one and a half or two months i have been riding an emotional roller coaster sometimes high and then suddenly having a steep fall...but i have one thing to say that i have never ever played fool with anyone and i really meant what i said.....hmmm....but some times destiny is not on ur side...
Aneways i am really happy for both my brother and sister and wish them the best of life with their respective would be spouses.

Haircut

Finally the day arrived when i decided to part with my hair.I have a bundle of mixed feelings, heartbroken becuz i took much pain to get them that long(and if u might be wondering what was the last time i had a haircut, it was exactly 6 months and 11 days back in november, when i was at home)but i also feel relieved since now i wont have to undergo the painful and the time consuming process of putting them into the right place.
But i fear of not having regular baths anymore , because earlier i had to wash my hair everyday to keep them growing.

well there are many reasons of me ditching my hairs::
1.They were defying gravity i.e. instead of growing downwards, they curled and started growing upwards and since i respect Newton i had to show them the dust.
2.Being long they were falling more than ever and i don't want to be bald so soon
3.The last night was the humid of them all and i felt like tearing my hair.
4.Its nearly the time to go home and i don't want my parents especially my grandma to be taken aback, considering the fact that i am still a proud owner of rather grand sidelocks and i would have to use all my persuading skills once i reach home.
5.Having short hair makes u feel like Neo :-)
6.Now people dont look at me as if i am a maniac or a geek or someone from the song Dum maro dum....
7.And the last of them all, if i do the "thing" , i need to look good and i have only 3 days left to do it , so wish me luck.

and if u are still wondering y i wrote this piece of crap, i have nothing else to do except while away time since i have lost the tempo to my project but still i am staying in kgp for "some" reasons.

In the end i must say that if u have read it up till here u r in no different state than me and try doing something else.

Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i have no idea what this is all about just that it seems like a chain which i am supposed to continue.People who are very curious can try to track back the trail starting from Iyer's blog.

THREE NAMES I GO BY :
tidu(udit inverse)
romram
chiku(my wingmates gave it to me)


THREE SCREEN NAMES :
sajjanharudit
udit_iitkgp
uditd


THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MYSELF :
Sentimental nature(senti i mean)
SideLocks(they look grand)
Simplicity

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MYSELF :
Hair( in few years there will be none)
Ever increasing waistline
Workaholic nature

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME :
Junta( i am kinda introvert)
Snakes
Speed

THREE ESSENTIALS :
Clothes(ha ha , bad one)
Having a bandi in ur life..(i have none)
Responsibility towards ur parents

THREE OPPOSITE SEX THINGS :
Understanding nature
Brains
Down to earth

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BADLY RIGHT NOW :
Go home
Training the comp to recognize hindi words(my project..)
Finish off this THREE thing

THREE CAREERS I AM CONSIDERING RIGHT NOW :
Any type of coding job
Research
and if nothing happens i have my dad's jewellery shop(ha ha)

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO A VACATION
Maldives(read as MAL BANDIS)
Amsterdam
Antartica

THREE KIDS NAMES I LIKE :
Kanav
Ishika
Priya

THREE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE :
Bungee jumping
Code the MATRIX
Find the right girl( i dont wanna die lonely)

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ :
Sangeeta
J
Sunny

(the idea is to take the same questions and answer them on your blog, and inflict them on 3 blogs u read...it's simple)

Dont read this one , u will not get it

I dont know what am i going to write , but still i will.
I really hate the feeling of coming back from lab , willing to relax on Gol C, but not having anyone with me and when i see people enjoying i feel more desprate.
Read J's blog abt friends and realized at this point of time i too dont have anyone whom i call a "friend".There are poeple with whom i work , with whom i joke, with whom i fight and with whom i go to chedies but still there is a void somewhere.
Sometimes i feel really lonely and feel like there should be someone who can understand me, who can give his/her shoulder to rest my head upon and can patiently listen to the agony of my heart.however there is only one person in the world who can do this, my mom, but she is rather too far ,too busy in her daily chores and i really dont want to disturb her...
the only thing left with me right now is by blog which obediently listens to me but i dont think that i like other people can manage it this way....i am rather desparte to have love showered upon me...but this is the reality and i will have to live it.
i really hate coming back from Gol C..

current muisc:Robbie Williams -Feel(becuz its goes with me right now)
Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste

I don't want to die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel real love
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand

Sunny Days

Yes the days have really turned hot here at KGP.

But after a lot of time i am finally enjoying my stayback here.I have got into a good routine , sleep around 6 or 7, wake up around 1 or 2 .By 3 or 3:30 i reach the lab.So i escape the heat either by sleeping or by being in the lab.

The time from 12:00 to 6:00 is really exiting .The shear opulence of kb's room, my new revolving chair and the cool breeze make my life really easy.

The time in the lab has been spiced up more , since the bandis look up to me to play music(hey i along with JD have discovered how to play music on thin clients.....exiting na....)and every time they seem frust i make them more by putting up earphones....its real fun teasing them.

I had started reading Archer but due to the scarcity of time had to leave it in between. Refering to time, its passing rather swiftly and i am sceptical about finishing my project till 15th since the work is getting tougher(but exciting also) and time is running out of hands.

Its good to hear that my friends are enjoying in Mumbai(http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com).Although i am not leaving any comments on the blogs i read , but still i am reading them.

and since to balance the things i have a bad news too.The yahoo messenger on my linux machine has crashed , so i will not be able to talk to u guys(see the irony :::my status message before crashing was "a man's silence is worth listening".....for some reasons which i have not conveyed till now, was hoping my silence could be understood.....)

chalo guys got to go.......miles to code before i sleep...

bye,have a nice time...

and haan sangeeta u can take the song ....becuz bandis in the lab dont like hearing too often :-))

a state called frust.............

yes the demons of "frustness" have got a tight hold over me..
ever since the day the seniors left one hour in the room seems like a whole day.even though the work i have is pretty interesting but since they excess of everything is bad , but i say not bad but boring.....
well try to spend the day time in lab ,for some reasons:-) ..but thats not worth it .....if u ma be wondering wht r those reasons ::well there r 2 very very frust bandis from bhu doing some kinda project under some unknown prof...and in my state of hyperfrustness , these seem to me like "good"....i cant believe that i am writing this but......he he i know that i am at the peak of frustness but i cant help...
and JD being my sole companion u can imagine my state...

may be i need some dosage of home to get back to normal , but thats far away until 15 th june.....

hope to spend this frust time fruitfully.....

ps:i am not that not as frust as i seem to be , but may be today i am being a bit nostalgic...chalo koi baat nahin hota hain.....and one more thing , i would like to clear that i am not maroing any type of cali on these bandis,,,,people who r close to me know my funda of life...i only talk to bandis who r like sisters to me...otherwise i dont....he he ...u may be thinking that wht a maniac this man is but i am like this and there is no probs in admitting it..and if u r still reading then i have to say that u have no other work to do.....

curent music::woh lamhe woh baatein, even when i am sleeping

chalo bbye.
cya

missing u guys

abe sahi main aaj i was missing u guys.....
while coming back from the lab saw a lot of people at gol c..
tum log yahan hote to baith kar bhaat marte .........ya fhir tinni aur main stars se shapes banate .......or tinni ka koi naya chu****pa kate....magar mazza aata yaar

but koi baat nahin , u guys enjoying in mumbai , and me here...
chal hope that we come online together...

mixed thoughts

well hadn't posted for long , may be nothing interesting was up , or may be i was busy in those treats bestowed upon me :-)thanx guys....will miss u a lot..........

but today was a day full of disappointment......
the morning paper initiated it---
1.there was report on jharkhand where half the population hasn't even seen a car , but the ministers are planning to build a helipad costing lakhs adjacent to the gov. office even when one exits 2 kms away, on the pretext that it is too far....
2.Rahul Gandhi is not receiving any help from state gov. for development in amethi....abe yaar theres atleast one guy who wants to work and they are also shunning him out......
3.then the bigger one--America is developing a space based system to deploy weapons , which can launch attack any where in the world in a flash of time.....whats this....is earth proving too small a place, that they are taking this arms race to space.....
4.and then our own Advani 'ji' says that that the left parties are blocking the path to prosperity.....just see the irony.....his party has been sitting more outside the parliament house than inside ......and the guy talks abt country's prosperity....abe if he was so concerned y did his party stay out of the budget sessions....hypocrites.....

sometimes i think that i should be a politician , so that i could do something for my country.....but that's certainly not possible....:-)
may be they should have a minimum criteria of education for a minister or even for that matter a mp.

if the politics wasn't enough , there were other downs....
my project partner wrote a total piece of shit on the name of code.......or may be i was expecting too much out of him(hey yaar no offense to u, may be i am a little frust)...but the point is that i will have to do it again :-<.

and spice my life more , after watching o.c. 224 i realized that the season was off :-<<

just wondering that if there is a co-relation between weather and my day being gloomy together....well if thats so than i got better days ahead , becuz its mostly sunny at kgp..

chalo guys have fun.........
cya.

A Good Day Of My Life

It has been an aberrative day till now.

Majorly becuz i got an Ex in COA , which means that i now will get a nehlli.wow it feels wonderful.I had to wait 4 semesters to make this happen.
Reddy u will surely get a treat now as i had promised u.

Secondaly , i got some substancial work from SS now it seems it will be fun doing it.

Thirdly , toady i finally woke up early enough to for a 2.2 .

fourthly , today i am also happy for someone else.I heard that shaunak would get a 10.0 if he geta an ex in nss.may he get it.

chalo bhai log bye.

ps:if any one wants to know his grades offline me.

Adieu D-139

Finally the day has come when i have shifted to a rather clean environment .We had last cleaned our room in the beginning of the semester and after that the room has turned into a store in which u can find every specie of lizards and insects, with hardly any space to sleep.Even the cobwebs had descended down to the table.
but now its histroy as i have temporarily shifted to imzi's room .
there are a few important points to note:
1.imzi had the same brand of monitor , even the same model , which made my work half as monitor shifting was not required.
2.the amount of other things(clothes and toiletries) that were shifted were negligible with respect to amount of electronic media shifted(both in quantity and surface area :-) )
3.imzi had left nothing to eat in his room :-< .
4.with kapil's room being the next one u dont have to worry abt music because there is always some nice song going on.
5.this room is atleast 4 times cooler than my previous room.
6.i dont have a double bed to sleep as was the case with my previous room.
7.the bathroom is really close by in contrast to the previous room.
8.for the first time in the last one year i have taken the trouble of filling the water bottle.


There only 2 things i fear now:
1.I think place is going to burn in the afternoon time.
2.COA grades are near by.

Summing up the Semester

Last 4 months could be rated as second in terms of the quality of time which i have spent in last 20 years, although i dont remember the first five.
The best time was those illu days and whenever i think of those chatais , the mess top specially , blood runs at twice the speed inside my viens and even now tears come to my eyes.
Coming back to this semester i was really exited to see my cg card as it was a decent one and everyone else had makhoed.Then came the alumni meet , although i was not directly involved , i had those meals of lifetime at vikramshila and in one of the meals the only thing i ate was salad!!!Can u believe it.Also the alumni night at the hall was "mast" with some of the profs like PPC revealing the secrets of their days.

Once alumni meet was over then came the Sf and Kshitij.Really enjoyed strings , girls, the "jhula" at the arena, and of course perpz.Days before kshitij were damm packed with me and tinni tring to code and v did it for continuous 1 week and without missing any class(shabash shabash).Also kshitij helped me and tinni to discover a new friend for whom v worked day and night.Robotix was the only event i was able to see and it was great.(hats off to reddy and golu).

After the mid sems were over it was the cpu load that took over and all the time during the days i was in the lab and during the nights figuring out what to do the next day.I even dreamt of the cpu.Finally i was among the batches who had completed the design in good time but till today no paper work has been done and i have got to submit the file in a few dayys .but the good thing is that tinni is willing to help me this time .I am lucky!!!!

In between came the hall elections and the final year farewell and the freshers trt by the new wing seniors.The treat was good but the most senti moment of the semester was the day when the 3rd years leaving for training , knowing that when they come back all the senoirs r not going to be there.even i had a heavy heart that day , 3rd years were going and final years are just abt to leave.God only knows how will v live without them.

Surprisingly i am not in a mood to go home.I dont know why.!!!!

This one is for me, myself

There are 2 people A and B.
Why does A think that is the best in business and if B is not like him, he can, being one step up in the hierarchy ,can say anything to B.
If B is not A then he is DIFFERENT and doesn't want to follow A's footsteps for his own reasons.B wants to take the other route becuz he thinks its the right one for him.
I wanna remind A that from B's point of view A is a WASTE but since B has his lips stitched , it is good mannerism that A keeps shut.But since A keeps on barking all the time, it is a testimony to the fact that "A is a waste".
And moreever since A pointed out that B is like C but C is not as disappointing as B ,B wants to make it clear to A that he just wants follow his own way and doesn't want to be like C , whom B respects a 1000 times more than A.
A should clearly understand that different people are different and even if a group of people have some common link between them, it is NOT necessary that all of them be the same.
and if A thinks that there is no one to care about B, and A's world is the best, B would like to tell A that there exist some people who care a lot for him, and he lives in a much better world then A.
also B prays to god that he never faces A again , becuz if he does then ,it would be very difficult for him to be behind his mask of respect for A and once this mask gets torn the consequences will not be good.



Aneways just wish me luck for my "8" credit course exam which is due tomorrow.

Confessions Of A MAGGU Mind.....................

today is the day that i have some confessions to make:
1.The biggest of all is that i confess i am a maggu, which means i have a natural tendency to mug only and try to run away from other things.
2.I am not as bright or a stud as i considered myself to b because even after so much maggai wht i can manage is just a meager 8.7 :-<
3.Except illu i have done nothing for the hall, which includes the following sub confessions;
I.going the itinerary wise i was called upon by vikram , to throw hammer during the athleticsevent , of which i did kanta saying that i have lab stuffs an all, and when today i heard that prakhar had gone to do it i feel really ashamed.
II.During the spring fest i had a lot of seniors telling me that be some head or sub head but i refused them all saying that i am not interested , but i actually did it becuz i thought i would waste a lot my time , and this was the thing that i was repenting all the spring fest.
III.I was on my WORST best during election campaining ,I had promised mallu that ane work u give me , will be done to the fullest of my abilities but when during the election time mallu came to me and asked to put those slips , i simply just escaped it even though he had reminded me of my previous promise.....(how could i be so bad).I regretted this on the day i needed some first Ist years to work for the dep farewell(Well deserved!!!!!!!!!!).
IV.This is the worst of all.Reddy had asked me to be present at the time of matkha phod during farewell day , but i just didn't come back becuz i was studying....damm shit studying what would have happened if i wouldn't have studied that day and after all he is one of my best seniors and i should have adhered to his call.That day was my worst day in RK becuz the feeling of guilt was hurting me like a stone in my shoe.
V.During the hall elections when modani had stood up for G.Sec Tech , i thought that what a damm fool he is but now i realize that wht do i do in my idle time?what is all i do except magai?i had no answer.I now realize that wht modani had told me(if u have time dont waste it just do something) was very correct, and he has taken the right step.
VI. Even the open software had given me ample chance to do something for the hall , which would be related to my field but that too i didn't do.


I make these confessions all of a sudden becuz a talk today with the final year batch had a great influence on me.
One of the things they said just stuck me....the person who toils around and does something always works harder in exam period and comes to same level of those maggus like me who have been nothing but just magai the whole sem.I an quote me example here::it was in the third sem that i worked day and night for illu and with only 6 days for the end some i did good, but this sem i dont think even after all that magai i would be able to do something great.
I feel that instead if i would have shown some tempo in any of the above mentioned confessions , i would be a better person now and would not writing this stuff , when i should really mug.

But now i think what is gone is gone and i should look forward to the future and try not be in the same position after the next semester.
And to all those whom i had defied , plz dont take to your heart becuz i am really sorry for what i have done and would try to improve next time ,specially reddy.
I know yhat i am a very bad person but i think that its never late to improve.......

The wheel moved on

Today at the tea party it was an expected but rather un-contemporary scene. I saw the big shot seniors taking a back seat and some guys from the third year batch taking their place.It was unusual to see prakhar da, sandeep and all not speaking , but just hididng in a corner as if they were first time in the common room.But it was also nice to to see that their rolls had been taken upon some of the responsible guys .
Well this was going to happen some day, but i saw a glimpse of it today and realized that the time has passed on since we had entered for our tea party. Till now i had no idea of how the life would change after the senoirs pass on , but today it was in front of me and let me tell u that its going to be difficult, atleast for me ,not to see those similar faces again.
bye bye final years.
wish u the best in life.

Dont know wht to say

I only want to say that i didn't mean any wrong , neither i had any thing against u , but just didn't do it becuz i didn't feel like doing it.
I know that u would be hurt, but even if u r not , i have the feeling that i have done something which u least expected of me.
I have no other word except SORRY , and i hope that i wouldn't have to scribble the same thing again in future.
SORRY "R".
hope u don't take load.
current mood:thoughtful
current song:tu tu hain wohi dil ne jise apna kaha

For us boys..............

WARNING::this a material which has been written out of frustness which has been lasting longer then ever.read at ur own risk.
hey guys if u r sitting frust out there having nothing to do then do read the names at tinni's blogs http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com
while i was suggesting those names to tinni i was reminded of the days of my school and those coaching days .I was in a boys school so until 10 th had no encounter with the other type of species flourishing with us.In my coaching during 11th and 12 th there were some girls but i never used to talk to them.But i had my first crush on a girl in my coaching whose name is there in the list.But never had the guts to talk to her .I am still the same .i dont talk to girls or i usually hesitate in talking, specially to the iit girls ,except a few.
but the important point is that the question which tinni asked was wonderful.just try to remember 10 girl names, whom u had met before kgp.U will see that some of the sweet memories will flash and u will tru to remember every girl whom u had met since class I.
so friends if u have some names which are not in the list plz drop them in either my comment box or in tinni's blog.http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com

frust

Had one of the worst days of the semester...
got up early becuz didnt feel like sleeping::waited for an hour for the mess to open
went to lab in morning ::got jumbled in those 1/2 kg wires , in the end found that some signals were yet to be given and the things that were working last day refused to react
after the "great" food at mess found that fruit shop had noting worthy to offer.
slept out of desperation
tried to go to the lab in the afte but was thrown out becuz i had not switched off the kit :-(.
went for a 2 hour lecture of the "BEST" course this sem :-).ooooooffff
had a test of 8 kodi in the evening :: completely makhaoed it ::main aisa kyun hoon???
now sitting in a completely desperate mood trying to figure out wht to do the next few hours as i wanna do noting

pal pal hain bhari vo vipda hain aayi
mohe bachane ab aaoo raghurayi

HOLI -a tradeoff

Good points--
1.it gives good way out for the guilt inside u ;u can approach them directly , make them red and green ,say "i am sorry", and thats it.u r done .
And if u think u should have not done it , go for it , holi is ur day to make it up :-) .

2.It is actually the of the year when u get to see lots and lots of colour around and such an atmosphere gets u going.

3.U get to visit the girls hostel and then blh blh.........

4.for those gourmands out there:: u get to eat mithai and ghujiyas if u r at home but if u r in kgp u have to be satisfied with the "gymkhana ladoos" and if u wanna eat "roosgullas" then try ur chance at matkha fhod

5.if u really hate someone then fancy ur chances ::u can discolour them those sticky shades of gold and silver::put colour in their hair ::completely tear off the remaining clothes:or even stuff their mouths with mithai stained with all the colour(no i have not even tried one of the above but have seen it :)) .

6.all "that" stuff is made legal ::u get bhang and.....and.....

7.if u haven't had a acquaintance with somebody till day ,try a hello, colours and talking..
one important corollary of the theorem #7 is that if wanna propose somebody , its a good time to for it(but i dont y this tautology proved wrong last year :-( .

well the points that i dont like--

1. u have to get up early about 10:00 on a holiday which is not at all possible for me.

2.if u dont get up u r waken up a bucket of water splashing on ur face and in the process of making a mess of ur already messed up room and u thinking who the hell will clean.

3.holi is infectious :: once u see the colour all around and the junta with so much tempo u tend be one of them.

4.u dont care about yourself::that colour in ur could have dangerous consequences::u could catch cold or even fever playing with so much water(ok i think i have exaggerated this one a bit).

5.but the worst part comes after the play is over::with the sun coming down hard on u now u got to clean yourself and now comes the first time of the day when u start hating water and just want to sleep.but u cant.so u eventually go to have a bath and find there is no water .yo HMC!!!

what do u do now??
u cant go to ur room and no one will allow in their room.
so u go and sit peacefully under a tree in ur hall garden , tired and drowsy.

6.And when u eventually bathe it seems like a while loop iterating for ever.no matter how hard u try u cant get that colour which hate to around with once the holi is over.

7.but its all not over after u get clean and ready.Either the mess is closed or it is well past 1:30 .


so as there r 7 each it now depends upon the weight u give to each one .
so guys follow ur heart and have a very prosperous holi.
HAPPY HOLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!