ILLU 28/10/05

Hey I just uploaded some illu pics. Click on the title.

ILLU 24/10/05

Well the long awaited post has come. Sorry for the delay Hari, but really couldn't find the time with all the assignments and the illu work. Today was officially the first day that we started tying diyas on the chatai and it felt really nice, specially it brought back the memories of previous year when I was on the mess top.

I along with reddy am incharge of a chatai at mess top. Its really hard to control your desire for tying the diyas because I feel like doing all the work myself alone. But I have to teach the second years how to do it and give them a chance to do it. And really they have picked up well on the first day. There has been a transition from the stage when was told to the stage when I am in control. These second years were looking up to me to correct them at every step, reminding me of the time when I used to say "dhammo kaisa banda hain, arre ishu batao kaise theek kare".
Suddenly I have been given responsibility of something big and sincerly hope that I live up to it.

I will be making a blog with all the illu pics once I get time.

chalo bbye for now,
hope I am able to find time tomorrow to write again.

WTF

Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all

Life really isn't fair.It has happened with me twice and as they say

Life is just one thing over and over.

The feeling that you get after being dumped for the felony you didn't commit is atrocious.The only words that you can think of are

WTF

.The damage is permanent since the other person looses the trust in you and its really difficult to bring it back to same level.It can never be the same again :-< .
Well what you can do is convince the him/her that it was not u who played the fool or you can comfortabely sit and do nothing since you feel that have done nothing.But when the other person is your loved one and his ignorant attitude is unbearable you really feel like killing yourself.
Its the second time that it has happened with and I wonder that how many times more will it hurt me again.Does it has something to do with my attitude???Am i too selfish???or the fact that i keep nagging everybody everytime makes them to believe that it was me???Well i really don't know and at this point of time i don't feel like talking to anybody.
I think i should change myself.