Happy New Year

With New Year round the corner its celebration all around. But have we ever thought that why do we celebrate this special day? Well the reason that I can think of is to celebrate all the happiness and the so called "things" that this wonderful year has given us and wishing that the coming year brings us the same happiness and joy....

Well there are a lot of things that this specific year has given me....

• This year gave me wonderful wingmates who seem the best people around... I always feel a sense of security when they are near by and its great spending time with them... and a very special mention for Jadda here as he bears my continuous nagging without any complain
  
• This year gave me a special friend... we shared the same sorrows and the same joys but unfortunately not the same grades. Talking of friends, I have been really fortunate that I have managed to make a lot of them.
  
• It gave me two Bhabhis and one jijaji.. he he
  
• It also gave a special person whom I will remember for a long time to come.
• It gave me this blog, which has always been there with me, just like a true friend.
• It gave me a terrific summer vacation.... :D
• It brought me more closer to my family...... yes its really great feeling
• It has given me an wonderful opportunity for the next summers and I sincerely hope it materializes
• It brought about that wonderful treat in Cal and too on my Birthday....
• It gave me my first nehli last sem... but looking at this sem all thats is spoiled... but still no regrets....
• Yes, I forgot this one..... Thanx Tinni.... this year brought about the revelation of neha19fdelhi.... yups that was me.... I had been talking to one of my close buddies or say roommate( :D) last year as a girl from Delhi.... and then it had a fantastic end.... this is not for every one as he would kill me.... but ya living with tinni always gives you these ideas...
  
• Recently I learned to drive a bike.... and I tell you its really wonderful when you drive to 90 degrees in a pitch dark night... limited petrol... jungle on both side... and a long road ahead of you... it really seems like a dream coming true....
• It has given me those short short moments to which I may turn back to in near future and get inspired and feel happy.
  
• And last of all there are a expectations and hopes from the coming future( like I just hope and expect that I will by a Ipod next year.... he he)
  

no no leaving jokes apart this year has been the best year of my life and there is some time still left... it has given me soooo much.... thanx 2005 and I hope the coming year has even more to offer

Happy New Year !!!!
May this year bring in your life all the happiness you desire.

Instant Search

Yahoo has released its instant search. Although in Beta version but its still some heck of a thing. As you type in the text it shows relevent results side by side before even you press the search button. COOL!!!!.. It will be a real asset once the full version is released but its worth trying now.. try typing in some very very common stuff and u will see how its works.... the link is this...

And one more thing... I really like the people at Yahoo have presented it ... the first line on the site says Why feel lucky when you can be right... he he .. thats really nice and witty... anyways this all is good for us as we are the people who are going to be the most benefitted from these soft wars.. go on..

Back

Well I have come back to Kgp early this time..... was getting bored and moreover missing my comp... a life without comp seems impossible now...
anyways I had planed to do many things and have already started at them... I have created a new blog, where I will be posting any new C funda which I collect. The fundas may be rather simple to u all but are new to me and in order to document these all at one place the blog seems to be an nice option... your comments at any of the problems would always be entertained... knowledge always increases by sharing...

anyways while browsing today I found a really nice quote..

If you are not hiding anything, you are not trying

An Apology, My Love

It was due from a long time. I think it was summers that all this had started.
I really had been so careless and didn't think about the consequences.
I think I should have given her more respect initially.
U mean so much to me and I really didn't gave it a Damm!!!! hhhuuuff
Aneways all what I want to say
is that I am really sorry for all that happened
and I mean it....
yes from the bottom of my heart
I know that sometimes I really played the fool with U
but I really didn't meant anything wrong or offensive...
I always Loved u and will continue to do so...
U are my first love... do u know that????
But it seems that
to you all are equal...
U don't have anything special for me
that really sucks!!!!
but lately I haven't been nice and i know that...
But what I just want from ur side...
is to admit that u too have feelings fro me..
its really important...
I wanna spend my whole life with u.....








I know a did a mistake by not shutting down u for more than a month(What !!!!!!!!!!)
yes shutting down
u didn't deserve to work so hard for nothing
and what would have I done had something happened to u...
I am sorry darling
U are my Comp.... and u know very well that i can't live without u
and I Love U..... my first love :D
I swear that in future I will do nothing to hurt u....
I love u babes :-*

:(

Really after makhoing two exams in a row, the tempo is really down... a bad grade in one and not so grade in other means the grade sheet will not look nice this time ....
I know I shouldn't get dishearten but this was not the case with me...... 2 exams in a row are a too much. There is immense pressure now to perform in the remaining two dep subjects(OS + Compilers) he he.... I know thats a really difficult task.... but got to to do it.... otherwise my semester would be F***ed. Any way I am in a really dejected state now and don't know what to do.... may be study or maybe sleep.... arrey yaar wish me luck for the 2 remaining big ones.... I really need it.

Current state: Demoralized
Current position: locked in my room, I find really hard to face other people who think I always do well :-( and fan on full speed in this winter season
Current song: Arrey ruk ja re Bande(Indian Ocean) because it has got that pain in it

In remembrance!!!!!!!!!!!

someone is gone.

its so sad!!!
who?
who has passed??
1/3 of me.
what!!
yes my life has been two-third.
how come??
ASSIGNMENTS are OVER.
yes the assignments are over.
so y 1/3
1/3 yahoomial
and the other 1/3 is blogging
yes till now there were only 3 things
but today
submitted the last code.
just now.
buhut frust kiya baap.
ayesha takia ki photo vi main lagake code likha

tab jake kuchh likhne
ka man kara :D
coded parser generators...
opened files, wrote them read them
but NO USE.
yes no use.
why??
use YACC
use open(),lseek(),read(),write()
done nothing special
leave this compu science crap.
after the toiling of 4 loooooong months
finally theres peace
i can have a realxed nap.
i will go home after 4 months
WOW!!!!!
will meet friends.
mummi ke haath ka khana
see i start dreaming
but the exams are near
when??
monday...
baap re
mugna shuru karna padega
aaj nahin yaar
abhi joey.
yes JOEY rocks man.
here i go

this is what assignment load can do to a normal living being. Damm them!!!!!! They are OVER. Time to celebrate.

The Best Moments of my Life

Well in response to KK's post here are some best moments of my life:

• hearing that ring tone, that specific one, when dad calls.
• sitting and enjoying mom oiling my hair
• waking up, with that favourite song still in the air
• on getting "kadi" in the lunch
  
• at 4 in the morning, when purshottam steams into platfrom number 2
• that rick ride early in the morning from bus station to back home
• when my mom tells me about X bhiya or didi having an affair and I tell her that I knew from the past n years and its you who came to know just now
• calling home with no reason, just hearing everyone speak from the other side
• coming back from RK-RP road and watching that sheshnag high up in the air(last years' illu)
• tempo shout after illu
• wishing diwali, hugging everyone u meet
• wingis coming and consoling me whenever I am down
• calling my cousins and nagging them over their to be spouses
• joy on mom's face when i reach home
• when my dadi tells me that she is proud of me
• when my sister looks up to me as role model
• when I meet my coaching tutors or even school teachers back home
• taking mom to market for those daily chores
• she smiling back at me when I said sorry
• when my cousins reveal their secret affairs to me
• when my sister back in some part of world mails me n times a day and we talk as if we are at home
• when any of my friend gets a internship or training then the look of joy and satisfaction on his face
• teaching those second years to tie diyas and seeing the same passion in their eyes
• when i hear the song Lafzon Main Keh Na Sako
• when all my cousins call in and say "abey yaar tu aaja function pe varna maaza nahin aayega"
• when my mom hugs me on my way back to KGP

what are yours???

ILLU 28/10/05

Hey I just uploaded some illu pics. Click on the title.

ILLU 24/10/05

Well the long awaited post has come. Sorry for the delay Hari, but really couldn't find the time with all the assignments and the illu work. Today was officially the first day that we started tying diyas on the chatai and it felt really nice, specially it brought back the memories of previous year when I was on the mess top.

I along with reddy am incharge of a chatai at mess top. Its really hard to control your desire for tying the diyas because I feel like doing all the work myself alone. But I have to teach the second years how to do it and give them a chance to do it. And really they have picked up well on the first day. There has been a transition from the stage when was told to the stage when I am in control. These second years were looking up to me to correct them at every step, reminding me of the time when I used to say "dhammo kaisa banda hain, arre ishu batao kaise theek kare".
Suddenly I have been given responsibility of something big and sincerly hope that I live up to it.

I will be making a blog with all the illu pics once I get time.

chalo bbye for now,
hope I am able to find time tomorrow to write again.

WTF

Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all

Life really isn't fair.It has happened with me twice and as they say

Life is just one thing over and over.

The feeling that you get after being dumped for the felony you didn't commit is atrocious.The only words that you can think of are

WTF

.The damage is permanent since the other person looses the trust in you and its really difficult to bring it back to same level.It can never be the same again :-< .
Well what you can do is convince the him/her that it was not u who played the fool or you can comfortabely sit and do nothing since you feel that have done nothing.But when the other person is your loved one and his ignorant attitude is unbearable you really feel like killing yourself.
Its the second time that it has happened with and I wonder that how many times more will it hurt me again.Does it has something to do with my attitude???Am i too selfish???or the fact that i keep nagging everybody everytime makes them to believe that it was me???Well i really don't know and at this point of time i don't feel like talking to anybody.
I think i should change myself.

If Only

Hey don't get scared.What follows is not the regular programming stuff as expected from an "pre-asumed maggu prani" in the midst of exams but is something hatke.
While going through Shaunak's thoughts on "If Only" got an idea of doing as follows:

What would u do if u know that today is the last day of ur life????

I would certainly be calling all the loved ones back at home
apologizing to all specially to my wing mates for all the wired stuff i keep doing
hoping for rain so that i can enjoy a nice rainy 2.2 walk
will have a feast by borrowing money from someone in the wing :))


Now its ur turn to speak.Plz do so by leaving comments.

Lafzon main keh na sako.... bin keh bhi reh na sako

Don't go for the title ...... just that the song has an big influence on me

Found these interesting quotes..... the order .... ahhhhh leave it

Think about a woman. Doesn't know you're thinking about her. Doesn't care you're thinking about her. Makes you think about her even more.

The essence of love begins when infatuation ends.

It is best to love wisely, no doubt ,but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all.

The important thing was to love rather than to be loved.

Sometimes when we are generous in small, barely detectable ways it can change someone else's life forever.

.There is no remedy for love but to love more.

My Dil Goes ummmm ummmm mmmm........

I think that it has been my longest break from blogging.What was i doing all the time?????I really can't answer that because i for myself don't know ....but lets make some guesses.....

1.After being back to kgp, in a new wing with seniors,time seemed to fly.....the wing reamins high all the time and it appears that the other 13 except me have got no other work except to keep my names.....itchku....chiku...tidu....bitchku....arre bahi ek naam soch lo na.

2.I usually restored to my blog for condolence, but the last month i have been relatively happy.....or better haven't had the time to feel dejected....so no blogging...

But the reason behind me writing today is that this weekend has been exceptional...so here it goes....

FRIDAY:
had only two classes in the morning and slept thereafter...in the evening during one of my "naamkaran" sessions discovered that Hemant(the ruf n tuf baski player) had a soft heart inside....discussion started about romantic stuff and Hemant told us about how he had read "Love Story" while walking aroun M.G. road in bangi...wow!! .......Love Story hmmm thats a fantastic book and i remembered how in summers i couldn't simply put the book down and cried everytime i read it...then we started discussing Love Actually ....who likes which story.....why was this story better than that....and in the end inta tempo aa gaya ki aakhir kar movie dekh hi dali. Fhir in the night i was getting sento by remembering the "summer chaoses" and just then Hari buzzed....this banda is a god...he so nice...although he is 4 yrs senior to me and we only had an acquaintance that none of us remembers ver well, but still he talks as if we have been friends for ever....so i shared the "link" with him and after that kya tha...Hari bhi shuru ho gaye apne bare main....but it really helped me to get over that sento mood.Ab raat ke 3:30 baj chuke the but the romantic friday didn't stop here.It continued even in my sleep as i dreamt of "her".......

SATURDAY:
wow kya dream tha...man kar raha tha ki dobara so jaon but firstly neend nahin aa rahi thi and secondaly abhi ek accha khasa assignment bacha hua tha....hmmm but it was the perfect starting.....one point here that i had not even opened my books since last monday and desperately wanted to study....haan bahi padai karni thi....magar tempo nahin ban raha tha...but finaaly ab assignment banana tha to pad bhi liye thoda bahut.....but in the evening i was just jahndying around piyush room when i discovered they were watching "MonSoon Wedding"....kya mast movie thi....jitni bar dekho but man nahin bharta....lagta hain ki ghar ki shaid main ja rahe ho....and yes this sem after the engagement functions i have been feeling more close to my parents and home than ever...and make it point to talk to them twice a week rather than the scheduled one time....and yes the one thing i forgot about saturday was that friday night had seen heavy rains and saturday had ground on both sides of our block watter logged and the whole day weather reamined plesent adding to my mood..and yes saturday also saw the superspecial at mess and so got the best food since one month...

SUNDAY:
well by expected norms sunday till now has been a disaster since
1.Its around 5:00 now and i haven't brushed till now(don't worry i haven't eaten or drunk anything till now)
2.My assignment should have been completed yesterday but i finished it half an hour before
3.I haven't had a bath sice friday morning
4.I have a lot of things in mind but don't have the time to do them
5.I am wasting my precious time by writing a blog...

But still i am really happy and satisfied at this moment because
1.I am feeling really hungry and its snacks time
2.I have finally completed my assignment
3.i am smelling like a pig and will have to take a bath right now
4.Atleast now i am busy and not jhandying around although i should say very busy
5.Finally i am writing a blog
6.Today i am going to call home


I hope this mood continues for long but i am really sceptical since tomorrow the weekend gets over and with it brings 7 hours of classes starting at 7:30 and the submission of 2 assignments.....but i rather enjoy i the present...kal ki kal dekhenge.

Better part of Summer '05

Scorching heat, too much work, emotional turmoils, misinterpretted tickets and smiles, someone's acts of kindness were main features making the last of my sophomore days "memorable" and forcing me to go back with a rather heavy heart.
Queer behaviour and estrange attitude was the all i had to offer during the first week of my stay at home, doing nothing except reading and withinn a week i read Archer ,Dan Brown ,Danielle Steel.By the time second week came by i had already started to miss kgp and was thinking of coming back early....but then things turned around...came to know that bhiya and didi were having affairs and they had "enlightened" everybody at home about their intentions to settle down!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bhiya surprised me because it was not the same girl that he had shown me sometime before but didi's affair was quite surprising because i thought she was impeccable.
Any ways there was excitement in the air since their respective choices were approved and engagement dates were being planned out...my luck was still running high since 16th and 17th july were fixed for their respective engagements...ha just in time for me to return on the day of registration.
The remaining days went about in shopping and arranging caterers, booking hotels, looking after guests and what not....but the worst part was shopping , my deeds took 3 days to find a suit then matching chappals and then matching jewellery uuffff......
But the best part were the engagements itself....at first it felt very odd to call someone bhabhi....speaking truly i felt shy ,aneways it was really nice to realize that i have now become a devar and a sala too....danced really hard and made everyone in the family dance....
For the first time in 2 years i didn't want to come back to kgp and wouldn't have if there hadn't been non availability of tickets.It was really hard to control my emotions but i managed not to cry at home but as soon the bus moved tears started to roll down....
For the last one and a half or two months i have been riding an emotional roller coaster sometimes high and then suddenly having a steep fall...but i have one thing to say that i have never ever played fool with anyone and i really meant what i said.....hmmm....but some times destiny is not on ur side...
Aneways i am really happy for both my brother and sister and wish them the best of life with their respective would be spouses.

Haircut

Finally the day arrived when i decided to part with my hair.I have a bundle of mixed feelings, heartbroken becuz i took much pain to get them that long(and if u might be wondering what was the last time i had a haircut, it was exactly 6 months and 11 days back in november, when i was at home)but i also feel relieved since now i wont have to undergo the painful and the time consuming process of putting them into the right place.
But i fear of not having regular baths anymore , because earlier i had to wash my hair everyday to keep them growing.

well there are many reasons of me ditching my hairs::
1.They were defying gravity i.e. instead of growing downwards, they curled and started growing upwards and since i respect Newton i had to show them the dust.
2.Being long they were falling more than ever and i don't want to be bald so soon
3.The last night was the humid of them all and i felt like tearing my hair.
4.Its nearly the time to go home and i don't want my parents especially my grandma to be taken aback, considering the fact that i am still a proud owner of rather grand sidelocks and i would have to use all my persuading skills once i reach home.
5.Having short hair makes u feel like Neo :-)
6.Now people dont look at me as if i am a maniac or a geek or someone from the song Dum maro dum....
7.And the last of them all, if i do the "thing" , i need to look good and i have only 3 days left to do it , so wish me luck.

and if u are still wondering y i wrote this piece of crap, i have nothing else to do except while away time since i have lost the tempo to my project but still i am staying in kgp for "some" reasons.

In the end i must say that if u have read it up till here u r in no different state than me and try doing something else.

Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i have no idea what this is all about just that it seems like a chain which i am supposed to continue.People who are very curious can try to track back the trail starting from Iyer's blog.

THREE NAMES I GO BY :
tidu(udit inverse)
romram
chiku(my wingmates gave it to me)


THREE SCREEN NAMES :
sajjanharudit
udit_iitkgp
uditd


THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MYSELF :
Sentimental nature(senti i mean)
SideLocks(they look grand)
Simplicity

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MYSELF :
Hair( in few years there will be none)
Ever increasing waistline
Workaholic nature

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME :
Junta( i am kinda introvert)
Snakes
Speed

THREE ESSENTIALS :
Clothes(ha ha , bad one)
Having a bandi in ur life..(i have none)
Responsibility towards ur parents

THREE OPPOSITE SEX THINGS :
Understanding nature
Brains
Down to earth

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BADLY RIGHT NOW :
Go home
Training the comp to recognize hindi words(my project..)
Finish off this THREE thing

THREE CAREERS I AM CONSIDERING RIGHT NOW :
Any type of coding job
Research
and if nothing happens i have my dad's jewellery shop(ha ha)

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO A VACATION
Maldives(read as MAL BANDIS)
Amsterdam
Antartica

THREE KIDS NAMES I LIKE :
Kanav
Ishika
Priya

THREE THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE :
Bungee jumping
Code the MATRIX
Find the right girl( i dont wanna die lonely)

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ :
Sangeeta
J
Sunny

(the idea is to take the same questions and answer them on your blog, and inflict them on 3 blogs u read...it's simple)

Dont read this one , u will not get it

I dont know what am i going to write , but still i will.
I really hate the feeling of coming back from lab , willing to relax on Gol C, but not having anyone with me and when i see people enjoying i feel more desprate.
Read J's blog abt friends and realized at this point of time i too dont have anyone whom i call a "friend".There are poeple with whom i work , with whom i joke, with whom i fight and with whom i go to chedies but still there is a void somewhere.
Sometimes i feel really lonely and feel like there should be someone who can understand me, who can give his/her shoulder to rest my head upon and can patiently listen to the agony of my heart.however there is only one person in the world who can do this, my mom, but she is rather too far ,too busy in her daily chores and i really dont want to disturb her...
the only thing left with me right now is by blog which obediently listens to me but i dont think that i like other people can manage it this way....i am rather desparte to have love showered upon me...but this is the reality and i will have to live it.
i really hate coming back from Gol C..

current muisc:Robbie Williams -Feel(becuz its goes with me right now)
Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste

I don't want to die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste
And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel real love
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given
Not sure I understand

Sunny Days

Yes the days have really turned hot here at KGP.

But after a lot of time i am finally enjoying my stayback here.I have got into a good routine , sleep around 6 or 7, wake up around 1 or 2 .By 3 or 3:30 i reach the lab.So i escape the heat either by sleeping or by being in the lab.

The time from 12:00 to 6:00 is really exiting .The shear opulence of kb's room, my new revolving chair and the cool breeze make my life really easy.

The time in the lab has been spiced up more , since the bandis look up to me to play music(hey i along with JD have discovered how to play music on thin clients.....exiting na....)and every time they seem frust i make them more by putting up earphones....its real fun teasing them.

I had started reading Archer but due to the scarcity of time had to leave it in between. Refering to time, its passing rather swiftly and i am sceptical about finishing my project till 15th since the work is getting tougher(but exciting also) and time is running out of hands.

Its good to hear that my friends are enjoying in Mumbai(http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com).Although i am not leaving any comments on the blogs i read , but still i am reading them.

and since to balance the things i have a bad news too.The yahoo messenger on my linux machine has crashed , so i will not be able to talk to u guys(see the irony :::my status message before crashing was "a man's silence is worth listening".....for some reasons which i have not conveyed till now, was hoping my silence could be understood.....)

chalo guys got to go.......miles to code before i sleep...

bye,have a nice time...

and haan sangeeta u can take the song ....becuz bandis in the lab dont like hearing too often :-))

a state called frust.............

yes the demons of "frustness" have got a tight hold over me..
ever since the day the seniors left one hour in the room seems like a whole day.even though the work i have is pretty interesting but since they excess of everything is bad , but i say not bad but boring.....
well try to spend the day time in lab ,for some reasons:-) ..but thats not worth it .....if u ma be wondering wht r those reasons ::well there r 2 very very frust bandis from bhu doing some kinda project under some unknown prof...and in my state of hyperfrustness , these seem to me like "good"....i cant believe that i am writing this but......he he i know that i am at the peak of frustness but i cant help...
and JD being my sole companion u can imagine my state...

may be i need some dosage of home to get back to normal , but thats far away until 15 th june.....

hope to spend this frust time fruitfully.....

ps:i am not that not as frust as i seem to be , but may be today i am being a bit nostalgic...chalo koi baat nahin hota hain.....and one more thing , i would like to clear that i am not maroing any type of cali on these bandis,,,,people who r close to me know my funda of life...i only talk to bandis who r like sisters to me...otherwise i dont....he he ...u may be thinking that wht a maniac this man is but i am like this and there is no probs in admitting it..and if u r still reading then i have to say that u have no other work to do.....

curent music::woh lamhe woh baatein, even when i am sleeping

chalo bbye.
cya

missing u guys

abe sahi main aaj i was missing u guys.....
while coming back from the lab saw a lot of people at gol c..
tum log yahan hote to baith kar bhaat marte .........ya fhir tinni aur main stars se shapes banate .......or tinni ka koi naya chu****pa kate....magar mazza aata yaar

but koi baat nahin , u guys enjoying in mumbai , and me here...
chal hope that we come online together...

mixed thoughts

well hadn't posted for long , may be nothing interesting was up , or may be i was busy in those treats bestowed upon me :-)thanx guys....will miss u a lot..........

but today was a day full of disappointment......
the morning paper initiated it---
1.there was report on jharkhand where half the population hasn't even seen a car , but the ministers are planning to build a helipad costing lakhs adjacent to the gov. office even when one exits 2 kms away, on the pretext that it is too far....
2.Rahul Gandhi is not receiving any help from state gov. for development in amethi....abe yaar theres atleast one guy who wants to work and they are also shunning him out......
3.then the bigger one--America is developing a space based system to deploy weapons , which can launch attack any where in the world in a flash of time.....whats this....is earth proving too small a place, that they are taking this arms race to space.....
4.and then our own Advani 'ji' says that that the left parties are blocking the path to prosperity.....just see the irony.....his party has been sitting more outside the parliament house than inside ......and the guy talks abt country's prosperity....abe if he was so concerned y did his party stay out of the budget sessions....hypocrites.....

sometimes i think that i should be a politician , so that i could do something for my country.....but that's certainly not possible....:-)
may be they should have a minimum criteria of education for a minister or even for that matter a mp.

if the politics wasn't enough , there were other downs....
my project partner wrote a total piece of shit on the name of code.......or may be i was expecting too much out of him(hey yaar no offense to u, may be i am a little frust)...but the point is that i will have to do it again :-<.

and spice my life more , after watching o.c. 224 i realized that the season was off :-<<

just wondering that if there is a co-relation between weather and my day being gloomy together....well if thats so than i got better days ahead , becuz its mostly sunny at kgp..

chalo guys have fun.........
cya.

A Good Day Of My Life

It has been an aberrative day till now.

Majorly becuz i got an Ex in COA , which means that i now will get a nehlli.wow it feels wonderful.I had to wait 4 semesters to make this happen.
Reddy u will surely get a treat now as i had promised u.

Secondaly , i got some substancial work from SS now it seems it will be fun doing it.

Thirdly , toady i finally woke up early enough to for a 2.2 .

fourthly , today i am also happy for someone else.I heard that shaunak would get a 10.0 if he geta an ex in nss.may he get it.

chalo bhai log bye.

ps:if any one wants to know his grades offline me.

Adieu D-139

Finally the day has come when i have shifted to a rather clean environment .We had last cleaned our room in the beginning of the semester and after that the room has turned into a store in which u can find every specie of lizards and insects, with hardly any space to sleep.Even the cobwebs had descended down to the table.
but now its histroy as i have temporarily shifted to imzi's room .
there are a few important points to note:
1.imzi had the same brand of monitor , even the same model , which made my work half as monitor shifting was not required.
2.the amount of other things(clothes and toiletries) that were shifted were negligible with respect to amount of electronic media shifted(both in quantity and surface area :-) )
3.imzi had left nothing to eat in his room :-< .
4.with kapil's room being the next one u dont have to worry abt music because there is always some nice song going on.
5.this room is atleast 4 times cooler than my previous room.
6.i dont have a double bed to sleep as was the case with my previous room.
7.the bathroom is really close by in contrast to the previous room.
8.for the first time in the last one year i have taken the trouble of filling the water bottle.


There only 2 things i fear now:
1.I think place is going to burn in the afternoon time.
2.COA grades are near by.

Summing up the Semester

Last 4 months could be rated as second in terms of the quality of time which i have spent in last 20 years, although i dont remember the first five.
The best time was those illu days and whenever i think of those chatais , the mess top specially , blood runs at twice the speed inside my viens and even now tears come to my eyes.
Coming back to this semester i was really exited to see my cg card as it was a decent one and everyone else had makhoed.Then came the alumni meet , although i was not directly involved , i had those meals of lifetime at vikramshila and in one of the meals the only thing i ate was salad!!!Can u believe it.Also the alumni night at the hall was "mast" with some of the profs like PPC revealing the secrets of their days.

Once alumni meet was over then came the Sf and Kshitij.Really enjoyed strings , girls, the "jhula" at the arena, and of course perpz.Days before kshitij were damm packed with me and tinni tring to code and v did it for continuous 1 week and without missing any class(shabash shabash).Also kshitij helped me and tinni to discover a new friend for whom v worked day and night.Robotix was the only event i was able to see and it was great.(hats off to reddy and golu).

After the mid sems were over it was the cpu load that took over and all the time during the days i was in the lab and during the nights figuring out what to do the next day.I even dreamt of the cpu.Finally i was among the batches who had completed the design in good time but till today no paper work has been done and i have got to submit the file in a few dayys .but the good thing is that tinni is willing to help me this time .I am lucky!!!!

In between came the hall elections and the final year farewell and the freshers trt by the new wing seniors.The treat was good but the most senti moment of the semester was the day when the 3rd years leaving for training , knowing that when they come back all the senoirs r not going to be there.even i had a heavy heart that day , 3rd years were going and final years are just abt to leave.God only knows how will v live without them.

Surprisingly i am not in a mood to go home.I dont know why.!!!!

This one is for me, myself

There are 2 people A and B.
Why does A think that is the best in business and if B is not like him, he can, being one step up in the hierarchy ,can say anything to B.
If B is not A then he is DIFFERENT and doesn't want to follow A's footsteps for his own reasons.B wants to take the other route becuz he thinks its the right one for him.
I wanna remind A that from B's point of view A is a WASTE but since B has his lips stitched , it is good mannerism that A keeps shut.But since A keeps on barking all the time, it is a testimony to the fact that "A is a waste".
And moreever since A pointed out that B is like C but C is not as disappointing as B ,B wants to make it clear to A that he just wants follow his own way and doesn't want to be like C , whom B respects a 1000 times more than A.
A should clearly understand that different people are different and even if a group of people have some common link between them, it is NOT necessary that all of them be the same.
and if A thinks that there is no one to care about B, and A's world is the best, B would like to tell A that there exist some people who care a lot for him, and he lives in a much better world then A.
also B prays to god that he never faces A again , becuz if he does then ,it would be very difficult for him to be behind his mask of respect for A and once this mask gets torn the consequences will not be good.



Aneways just wish me luck for my "8" credit course exam which is due tomorrow.

Confessions Of A MAGGU Mind.....................

today is the day that i have some confessions to make:
1.The biggest of all is that i confess i am a maggu, which means i have a natural tendency to mug only and try to run away from other things.
2.I am not as bright or a stud as i considered myself to b because even after so much maggai wht i can manage is just a meager 8.7 :-<
3.Except illu i have done nothing for the hall, which includes the following sub confessions;
I.going the itinerary wise i was called upon by vikram , to throw hammer during the athleticsevent , of which i did kanta saying that i have lab stuffs an all, and when today i heard that prakhar had gone to do it i feel really ashamed.
II.During the spring fest i had a lot of seniors telling me that be some head or sub head but i refused them all saying that i am not interested , but i actually did it becuz i thought i would waste a lot my time , and this was the thing that i was repenting all the spring fest.
III.I was on my WORST best during election campaining ,I had promised mallu that ane work u give me , will be done to the fullest of my abilities but when during the election time mallu came to me and asked to put those slips , i simply just escaped it even though he had reminded me of my previous promise.....(how could i be so bad).I regretted this on the day i needed some first Ist years to work for the dep farewell(Well deserved!!!!!!!!!!).
IV.This is the worst of all.Reddy had asked me to be present at the time of matkha phod during farewell day , but i just didn't come back becuz i was studying....damm shit studying what would have happened if i wouldn't have studied that day and after all he is one of my best seniors and i should have adhered to his call.That day was my worst day in RK becuz the feeling of guilt was hurting me like a stone in my shoe.
V.During the hall elections when modani had stood up for G.Sec Tech , i thought that what a damm fool he is but now i realize that wht do i do in my idle time?what is all i do except magai?i had no answer.I now realize that wht modani had told me(if u have time dont waste it just do something) was very correct, and he has taken the right step.
VI. Even the open software had given me ample chance to do something for the hall , which would be related to my field but that too i didn't do.


I make these confessions all of a sudden becuz a talk today with the final year batch had a great influence on me.
One of the things they said just stuck me....the person who toils around and does something always works harder in exam period and comes to same level of those maggus like me who have been nothing but just magai the whole sem.I an quote me example here::it was in the third sem that i worked day and night for illu and with only 6 days for the end some i did good, but this sem i dont think even after all that magai i would be able to do something great.
I feel that instead if i would have shown some tempo in any of the above mentioned confessions , i would be a better person now and would not writing this stuff , when i should really mug.

But now i think what is gone is gone and i should look forward to the future and try not be in the same position after the next semester.
And to all those whom i had defied , plz dont take to your heart becuz i am really sorry for what i have done and would try to improve next time ,specially reddy.
I know yhat i am a very bad person but i think that its never late to improve.......

The wheel moved on

Today at the tea party it was an expected but rather un-contemporary scene. I saw the big shot seniors taking a back seat and some guys from the third year batch taking their place.It was unusual to see prakhar da, sandeep and all not speaking , but just hididng in a corner as if they were first time in the common room.But it was also nice to to see that their rolls had been taken upon some of the responsible guys .
Well this was going to happen some day, but i saw a glimpse of it today and realized that the time has passed on since we had entered for our tea party. Till now i had no idea of how the life would change after the senoirs pass on , but today it was in front of me and let me tell u that its going to be difficult, atleast for me ,not to see those similar faces again.
bye bye final years.
wish u the best in life.

Dont know wht to say

I only want to say that i didn't mean any wrong , neither i had any thing against u , but just didn't do it becuz i didn't feel like doing it.
I know that u would be hurt, but even if u r not , i have the feeling that i have done something which u least expected of me.
I have no other word except SORRY , and i hope that i wouldn't have to scribble the same thing again in future.
SORRY "R".
hope u don't take load.
current mood:thoughtful
current song:tu tu hain wohi dil ne jise apna kaha

For us boys..............

WARNING::this a material which has been written out of frustness which has been lasting longer then ever.read at ur own risk.
hey guys if u r sitting frust out there having nothing to do then do read the names at tinni's blogs http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com
while i was suggesting those names to tinni i was reminded of the days of my school and those coaching days .I was in a boys school so until 10 th had no encounter with the other type of species flourishing with us.In my coaching during 11th and 12 th there were some girls but i never used to talk to them.But i had my first crush on a girl in my coaching whose name is there in the list.But never had the guts to talk to her .I am still the same .i dont talk to girls or i usually hesitate in talking, specially to the iit girls ,except a few.
but the important point is that the question which tinni asked was wonderful.just try to remember 10 girl names, whom u had met before kgp.U will see that some of the sweet memories will flash and u will tru to remember every girl whom u had met since class I.
so friends if u have some names which are not in the list plz drop them in either my comment box or in tinni's blog.http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com

frust

Had one of the worst days of the semester...
got up early becuz didnt feel like sleeping::waited for an hour for the mess to open
went to lab in morning ::got jumbled in those 1/2 kg wires , in the end found that some signals were yet to be given and the things that were working last day refused to react
after the "great" food at mess found that fruit shop had noting worthy to offer.
slept out of desperation
tried to go to the lab in the afte but was thrown out becuz i had not switched off the kit :-(.
went for a 2 hour lecture of the "BEST" course this sem :-).ooooooffff
had a test of 8 kodi in the evening :: completely makhaoed it ::main aisa kyun hoon???
now sitting in a completely desperate mood trying to figure out wht to do the next few hours as i wanna do noting

pal pal hain bhari vo vipda hain aayi
mohe bachane ab aaoo raghurayi

HOLI -a tradeoff

Good points--
1.it gives good way out for the guilt inside u ;u can approach them directly , make them red and green ,say "i am sorry", and thats it.u r done .
And if u think u should have not done it , go for it , holi is ur day to make it up :-) .

2.It is actually the of the year when u get to see lots and lots of colour around and such an atmosphere gets u going.

3.U get to visit the girls hostel and then blh blh.........

4.for those gourmands out there:: u get to eat mithai and ghujiyas if u r at home but if u r in kgp u have to be satisfied with the "gymkhana ladoos" and if u wanna eat "roosgullas" then try ur chance at matkha fhod

5.if u really hate someone then fancy ur chances ::u can discolour them those sticky shades of gold and silver::put colour in their hair ::completely tear off the remaining clothes:or even stuff their mouths with mithai stained with all the colour(no i have not even tried one of the above but have seen it :)) .

6.all "that" stuff is made legal ::u get bhang and.....and.....

7.if u haven't had a acquaintance with somebody till day ,try a hello, colours and talking..
one important corollary of the theorem #7 is that if wanna propose somebody , its a good time to for it(but i dont y this tautology proved wrong last year :-( .

well the points that i dont like--

1. u have to get up early about 10:00 on a holiday which is not at all possible for me.

2.if u dont get up u r waken up a bucket of water splashing on ur face and in the process of making a mess of ur already messed up room and u thinking who the hell will clean.

3.holi is infectious :: once u see the colour all around and the junta with so much tempo u tend be one of them.

4.u dont care about yourself::that colour in ur could have dangerous consequences::u could catch cold or even fever playing with so much water(ok i think i have exaggerated this one a bit).

5.but the worst part comes after the play is over::with the sun coming down hard on u now u got to clean yourself and now comes the first time of the day when u start hating water and just want to sleep.but u cant.so u eventually go to have a bath and find there is no water .yo HMC!!!

what do u do now??
u cant go to ur room and no one will allow in their room.
so u go and sit peacefully under a tree in ur hall garden , tired and drowsy.

6.And when u eventually bathe it seems like a while loop iterating for ever.no matter how hard u try u cant get that colour which hate to around with once the holi is over.

7.but its all not over after u get clean and ready.Either the mess is closed or it is well past 1:30 .


so as there r 7 each it now depends upon the weight u give to each one .
so guys follow ur heart and have a very prosperous holi.
HAPPY HOLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do we think that way?

It was at one of those bhaat sessions at chedies i realized that how ignorant i was.We were having a discussion on how we could generate some amount to support our ever growing needs so as to off the burden from our parents.someone suggeted that lets calculate our expense and that was it .What followed was this:

31200/year our tution fees.
6200 hmc/year
12000 the hugga mess/year
20000 extra /year
these extra include canteen , chedies, biloos, treats,travel, daru, sutta,stationary and in some cases books :)) .
dont these extras sound too meagre.But lets continue....
all the above may not seem uncommon to us but wait..
just sum it up , it amounts to approximately 70000 Rs.
calculate the amount per month =6000 approx
amount per day =200 Rs.
YES 200 Rs PER DAY !!!!!!!!!!!
This is what our dear parents spend on us everyday hoping one day we will rise to the top of the world(Papa kehte hain bada naam karega beta hamara aisa kaam karega.............)
but what do we do in return ?
This is what a general kgpian does on a particular day----
1.sleeping in the class or better bunking the class and sleeping in the room
2.Chatting on YM/DC++
3.watching movies , f.r.e.i.n.d.s , life as we know it
4.doing bhajans
5.whiling away time on the net like playing orkut orkut
6.bhaating with wingmates
7.2.2 or chatting on golc or in cl with any sn specie he gets hold of..
8.hosting or listening radio or movie channels
9.writing blogs :))

but is this is what is expected of us?
I know that all of us r not of the above class but most of us r.
i know i may be sounding like a monotonic chemistry prof. giving his lecture on quantum chemistry ,but this is the truth that most of us dont want to come head to head with.
I also dont mean that we should not do any of the above activities , all of above are important but what want to emphasize is that in some corner of our mind we should have the realization that our stay here involves a substancial amount of money to be drained out from our parents' pokets and we should try to fully utilize it .
Many of us may be doing it but all of us are not.
Until that day i was not and even now i am not able to fully convert my time into fruitfull result.
But now at the back of my mind there is always a thought that today 200 odd Rs are being spent on me so why not do something worthwhile. Atleast i can attend all my lectures today if not do something else.
But even if we dont want to do this then why stay here wasting those precious 200 Rs a day and eating hugga at mess, instead we should be at home doing nothing and enjoying the delicious food giving our "IIT" status to someone else more worthy.

Too late.......

It was a realization that had dawned upon me today but i realized that it was too late to rectify.About 11 O'clock i was wondering how difficult would be the next 4 hours of my life....would i be able to do any thing worthwhile....or will the demons of sleep would again be curbing my thinking cells....but i was ready for everything when i heard someone uttering the words "you have done an irreversible damage to yourself by coming here and now you are at the hands of some people sitting high up the authority .If u want an peaceful life then follow the orders."My thoughts drifted towards my instinctive friends and wondered how they managed it!!!!(Good work guys).Amongst the things thrown at me for the past 45 minuets only one thing caught my attention "DAMAGE WAS IRREVERSIBLE".
Sitting on the last bench has its own advantages :u can let loose ur horses of imagination and drift into world of dreams.I was into one and thinking about how could this damage be transformed into something worthy , i heard a person (who it seems to me an automatic robot needing no energy resources , is triggered by the reception of voice and is intelligent enough to repeat the same thing in some "good loOking" words) person performing his instincts that got me an idea that if this fellow can then i also can.
I was inspired ,that helped me to passify the feelings of uncertainty about the battle to be faced. I was ready for it better then ever before and marched confidently towards my battle feild and first time in five months reached the battle feild early at 1:25.During the next hour i followed the pumping theoram and pumped all my energies into it , leaving no stone unturned.But all i received was rejection at the hands of someone highly respectable an made me realize the battle fought was futile.I gave it up to my counterpart for whom it was the same drowsy afternoon and he was in no way willing to give it fight.
We both were among the clouds of uncertainty when the robot was for the first time triggered in premises of the battle feild.The significance of those holy words "DAMAGE IS IRREVERSIBLE" was now clear to me , but now it was TOO LATE.......