Sunday, December 31, 2006
Just Another Day
Obviously the first answer is that man is a social animal and needs to party. Very true. But I by nature am not that out going and like to sit back , watch things happen, observe. From the day I have returned to Kgp, I have done nothing worthwhile, just sitting and watching time pass by. Seems C-314 RK gives the comfort, the coziness that one seeks at home. Its not that I am uncomfortable at home, but its juat that I feel more satiated here. It might be due to the addiction to computers/internet, but thats the way it is.
Coming back to where I started this post. New Year brings nothing special. Neither does the sun rise from west nor does Ayesha Takia decides to marry me. So why is it so special. I think there's one reason. This appears to be the time when we look back at our lives. I really like the comparison that Robin Sharma presented in his book The greatness Guide. Life's like a car that you are driving. You need to know before hand where you are going otherwise you'll get lost. But how many of us actully reflect back on life to check where's it heading to. Is this where I had positioned my self 5 years ago. Or have I got myself into compulsions that I cant break free from. Self Introspection is very important. Its just like the fuel you need to run your car. But often most of us dont have the time to sit back and think about life. We have too busy lives these days. This is dangerous. Imagine yourself as the driver of car, in hurry to reach the destination, not having enough time to fill the tank. A time will come when you will be stranded in the middle with no where to go. Awesome thought.
Most of us when we look back on the past year are able to picturize the good moments that this had brought us. I imagine myself as dancing at the weddings, going home on Diwali, standing on the edge at Grand Canyon, enjoying the long walk at Terminal 4, Heathrow Airport, listening to Atif's songs..... yes this is why I am happy. Also the fact I will be wishing everybody at home fills me with enthusiasm. But its important to learn from the time that has past. Not to repeat the mistakes that were made. This promts us to think about the future too, to plan for it, set goals. Here comes resolutions. This where the specialty of the day lies in. Its 11:25 pm and yet I have not fixed upon my list of new year resolutions. But soon I will be making them. The important thing is that this time I am going to make a reasonable list and will make sure that the next time I write such a post, I boast about achieving my goals.
Chalo its time now, Once again Happy New Year!!
An Year that has been......... Simply great!!
- It was the year when two of my cousin brothers got married and one of my cousin sister got engaged. I being one of the youngest in the family was pampered at the weddings. Wedding, this word rings bells in me. Its the only time when the whole family is together, enjoying, smiles all around everyone's looking great ...... Simply awesome. This year there were a couple of them and were the best family experiences of my short lifetime till now.
- It was an year when I traveled. Seriously. In January I was at Mumbai for a tech-fest. Then March I went to Vaishno-devi. Come May and I was sitting in USA. August saw a wedding a Chandigarh and finally visited Kota in December.
- This year again made that American dream come true. I was in Texas for 10 weeks and enjoyed/learned a lot. Awesome. Also I got to see Heathrow Airport( thanx British Airways), the one where a part of movie Love Actually was shot. And I seriously love this place. You got to be there to feel the love.
- This was the year when I went home 6 times the whole year. That is twice the expected number of times. Not to mention that it takes me about 26 hours to reach home. :)
- Academically this year was good too. Got nine pointers in both the semesters. But the important point was that I learnt quite a lot. but the main highlight of the year was getting an Ex in Grid computing. That restored back some confidence in me telling me I can still do it. Also I attened the first ever conference of my life. Finally did some research work and have written a paper too. Hope to get it published soon.
And then there's a bad side to everything too.
- This year too I wasn't able to find love. Matters of heart went vacant. Aaakir family tradition ko bhi tu aage badhana hain na... :D
- I should have said NO to a few things that I involved myself in. Saying NO is very important as it saves your time to do the more important things.
Summing it up, it was great year all round. It would be a bookmark year in the diary of my life. 2007 has a lot hopes associated with it right now. If they come true, this year will bite the dust. :D
Have A great 2007. Happy New Year!!
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Note: Totally off the topic, I want to mention something. Last night I registered myself to a university project at University of Minnesota, Movielens, rated 30 odd movies, just to get the right recommendation for a movie. Ya I know this is what geeks do... Finally watched Wedding Crashers.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Celebration
CELEBRATIONS MEANS......
A winter evening.
Four friends.
One barsaat.
Four glasses of chai.
(OR)
Hundred bucks of gas.
A rusty old bike.
And an open road.
(OR)
Maggi noodles.
A hostel room.
4.25 a.m.
(OR)
3 old friends.
3 separate cities.
3 coffee mugs.
1 internet messenger.
(OR)
Rain on a hot tin roof.
Pakoras deep-frying.
Neighbours dropping in.
A party.
(OR)
You and mom.
A summer night.
A bottle of coconut oil.
A head massage.
Gossiping about absent family members.
You can spend
Hundreds on birthdays,
Thousands on festivals,
Lakhs on weddings,
but to celebrate
all you have to do is spend your Time .
KEEP IN TOUCH WITH UR LOVED ONES..
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Love and Marriage
*A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the wheat
field and choose the biggest wheat and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back
to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big wheat,
but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger
one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the wheat field, he start to
realise that the wheat is not as big as the previous one he saw, he
know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher
told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but
when later you realise, you have already miss the person...."*
*"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn
field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you
can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to
repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he
has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the
teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for
one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best
one you get.... this is marriage."*
So True!!!
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Searching for a life
Recently Life has taken drastic turns and thus has brought about many changes.
Firstly I have had this realization that I can't work for an employer. I mean I can't do stuff which doesn't make sense to me. So getting job in any company after I graduate is out of question now. This means there are only a few companies that appeal to me. But then most of them do no research work in their India centers. There's another option of doing a Ph.D. but it requires commitment from 3 to 5 years. But the advantage is that I get to work on the topics I want to and whenever I want to. But what after a Ph.D. Teaching... strict NO, Working for some research lab.... ya may be, starting something of my own.... ya highly probabable.... But there's also an option of starting up something right now, there's ample time and resources, but but but... I don't feel that we have the enough knowledge to go for it... I mean we have the ideas we can also make them work.... but these ideas are small... I mean putting up petty sites to capture small business doesn't work for me.... Putting up such stuff can be done at any point of time and doesn't offer that much of a technical challenge...... what I want to do is to first come up with something which brings about a substantial positive change in the lives of the people and then may be convert it into a enterprise . But then there's another side of the story too. While we are here at IIT we have got the resources, friends and support to make something work.... but on the other side it requires full commitment and sacrificing your academic life.... its pretty clear that two things can't be done at one time...
Thus there's a big big decision to be made right now..... What do you want to do... app... Then go study improve your CGPA and get some papers published..... want to startup something... minimize the classes.... work day and night to materialize your ideas.... the second option is totally opposite to the first one and I am hanging in between... right now I am at a crossroad, standing still, observing people working towards their set goals, wondering which direction to step in. Both have their pro's and con's and I’m totally perplexed about what should be done...maybe I need to talk to somebody.... but who... I don't know.....
Secondly, there’s bitwise to be organized. This involves getting a lot of work done by a lot of people. I am lucky that I am surrounded by friends who are more than willing to help, but still I am required to get the work done. It is not the work that loads me but the responsibility. But it’s Ok. I think with the help of my friends I can manage it.
Thirdly, my project has recently turned too demanding. Basically I am simulating something, which requires me to code in OTcl ( object oriented Tcl). Leave aside Object Oriented, I even don't know Tcl. Thus I have been spending days and nights to get it done... and it’s started to frustrate me now... I have an important deadline to match... Nov 1..... and in between I am going home too.. for 6 days... ufff... maa bahut kaam karna hain....
Fourthly, going home reminds me of home. I have been so busy lately that I had forgotten about home. Recently my mom called and its then I realized that I was to call her the day before....
Fifthly, there's illumination going on in the hall. I have worked off my ass in the last two years but this time I neither have the commitment neither the tempo to participate... why? mainly becuz of what happened to me last year.... I don't want to do the same to some third year, so I have quietly opted out. See I don't want to be god.... huh.... . As a result people of my batch who are actively into it, have started despising me, but then what can I do.
And Finally among all this I am required to attend classes and make assignments... :) :) , a few of them are good, but a few are really frustrating....
Thus at this point of my life I am standing at a point where every step that I take would matter and I am totally unaware of what should I do. I need to make quick decisions becuz the clock is ticking too fast....
Thursday, September 28, 2006
IPod rocks because:
Similar is the case whens a romantic scene comes on... or the hero is remembering his beloved... you have exactly the same thoughts... but the sweet music is missing.... It so happened that while I was at UTEP, one evening I feeling too happy, a bit romantic.... it was also overcast.... so what I did, played She Will Be Loved on my Ipod, and took a walk around the gardens, with hands in the pockets, whistling around, giving a damm about what others think...
And same is the case when you are sad... I take out my frustration by listening to Atif Ali's songs LOUD.... REALLY LOUD... but think of thy neighbours..... so what can you do, put on the Ipod, set the volume to maximum, change it to the bass boster mode, press the earphones hard into your ears... and get lost in a world thats much much above the one in which we live....
What do you do when you want to give a damm about whats happeneing around you... just pluginn your Ipod.... put up a instrumental and continue on with what you were doing...
Yes ipod you are my second love... after my comp.... hope it continues the same way...
Warning: To do what's written above requires one to pay a shit to what others might think. They might think that you're acting stylish... haughty... or something else... but you don't have to care about what others think... the important point is that you are happy with what you are doing and not hurting someone else..... thats all thats required..... :D
and for all the people who give that stupid smile whenever they see my Ipod on is this _|_
Sunday, September 17, 2006
So True!!!!
- Never compromise your ideals because someone said it’s impossible, stupid, or a waste of time.
- Do focus on changing the world, don’t focus on the money. If you provide value, the money will come.
- Have a healthy disregard for the impossible. If someone hasn’t done it yet, that doesn’t mean it’s impossible.
- Go against the grain. Don’t believe in other people’s visions for you, believe in your own.
- Speed is more important than looking good. A shiny, beautiful car isn’t impressive when it gets overtaken by an old jalopy; the same applies to software.
- Focus on users above all else, e.g. don’t do something that might annoy your users just to make more money, they won’t forget.
- Beat your own path through the wilderness.
I had been thinking of reading this for long now. Now its due next week. And ya the voice of the gadget when says, “You have got mail” is awesome. Haven’t submitted it though.
And yes, I’m quite happy today. Finally there’s a subject that I love. Cluster and Grid is the best course that I have done in 3.5 years here. I have started respecting AG sir a lot. He’s an awesome teacher. It happened yesterday that Jadda and I were watching a documentary on Windows Vista’s networking team. There were talking of the changes they had made in the networking part of their OS and half the things they talked about were the ideas that we were studying in class. This is what it should be like. I mean it felt awesome. More about this later.
Friday, September 15, 2006
Tanha Dil!!!!
Udit Sajjanhar... huh... that guy.... redundant.... throw him away....
People have had a drastic change in their priorities... which don't involve me anymore....
seems there is a big big ocean in front of me, and I am required to cross it ALONE. I am scared, I can't do it alone but then there's no one to beckon, everybody is too busy to respond to the fatal summons.....
A big dark hole and I am continuously falling, knowing nothing about where it would lead, But I can't do nothing.
chalna akele hain yahan....
Tanha Dil, Tanha Safar....
doondhe tujhe fhir kyun nazar....
Tanha Dil.....
I’m standing on the bridge
I’m waiting in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound
Isn’t anyone trying to find me
Won’t somebody come take me home
It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won’t you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are but I
I’m with you
Saturday, September 09, 2006
So what have I been upto???
Initially when the semester started, there was a lot of confusion and rush for getting the right courses, matching the slots , ensuring you had minimum 7:30 classes, deciding the tradeoff between QoS(Quality of subject) and the expected grade... aneways the first week passed, listening to the stories of different people, what had they done on their internship, telling them yours.... :) and ofcourse sleeping.
I had come to know about the Google Gadget contest in the summers itself, when it was launched, but it was only in the second week that I realized that the deadline was extended to August 14th. So why don't give it a try, I thought. Downloaded the SDK, decided upon the idea.... and then after several nightouts and dayouts too this was the result..... submitted it to Google and this was the prize... nice!!!! atleast it was the first time my efforts got rewarded.
Meanwhile I was also planning to go home... My cousin brother was getting married on 12th and my cousin sister was getting engaged on 21st.... I had to decide between coming back and staying back... the former had the advantage of not missing too may calsses and the latter ensured good food, sleep and unlimited pampering for a substantial period.... so after a lot of deliberations I decided upon the latter and set on my journey of dreams..... DREAMS... yes beacuse going home for a wedding is like a dream come true. All your relatives are there, all your cousins, all happy, and when you are the youngest and have just returned from states... you tend to get pampered... so was I... but the journey back was awesome... My Ipod lasted till the very end... Yo Apple... yo rock dudes!!!.... aneways just on reaching home... there was a function going on.... dhols were being sounded at full blast... I stepped out from the car.... ran inside... hugged my favourite cousin on the way.... threw my bag.....threw my shades... and started dancing.... wow....as I am writing this post... I am feeling the same way... wow that was awesome... and after that it was rocking for the next 10 days.... shopping for the wedding... get the small small tasks done.... managing the function... ensuring that bhiya's salis didn't pester him much... recording all the fun on my new camcorder..... and then afterwards teasing bhiya in front of bhabhi..... ufff... awesome... and ya also the engagement on 21st was awesome... danced my heart out... and everybody said that we were looking awesome... waiting for the pics to come... jaldi bhejo yaar.. missing you all at home...
Came back on 23rd.... every thing had piled up... there was a presentation in 2 days... and assignments to submit.... a week flew past without me knowing... but finally caught up... then there was the dep intro to be held... first we had planned it for 1st but then shifted it to 7th Sep. This week saw 2 tests.. assignments... prepration for intro... basically nothing interesting.... but I had already started on my second Gadget... It so happens that if you use Gmail... and have labels... and a mail comes to your labels, then the Gtalk notifier doesn't notify you.... this had been troubling me for a long time now... so I have made a gadget that informs you even when a mail comes to your labels... by saying.. You have got mail
Midsems.... this is one thing that haunts me now... haven't read anything till now.. and they start from friday... lag hui hain baap.... aneways... haven't seen any movies.. neither Omkara.. nor munna bhai....
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
There's nothing like.......
having a shower after a 2.2
There is nothing like
rajma chawal cooked by mom
There is nothing like
Shakira Dancing
There is nothing like
a rainy saturday...
There is nothing like
watching Love Actually
There is nothing like
completing the last round at gyan ghosh
There is nothing like
sleeping early and wakingup early...
There is nothing like
having AG's and PDG's classes the same semester...
There is nothing like
Spanish Girls (Komastas!!! :D)
There is nothing like
leading a life, not caring what others might think of you...
There is nothing like
getting lost in Ipod while cycling, specially when its overcast...
There is nothing like
watching Rang De Basanti on your flight home... 3 times... he he
There is nothing like
writing a blog after a long time...
There is nothing like
having a bath every day... :)
There was nothing like
dada's six.... wow I loved his stride forward....
Monday, July 24, 2006
atleast something's right....
Yes I have found a new passion in my life to keep me going..... recently got a new cycle... Hero Hawk... the racing bikes types... but without gears.... although I am in 4th year currently and I've got 2 more years to go... getting a new cycle was more of a luxury than a need... but sometimes you should do what your heart says is right and should ask your mind to keep shut becuz it really pays off.... so now lets come to the reason of existance of this post:
Recently I've got a new Ipod as well... so what I did was combined the two new material possesions above and also the song Bewafa from Mehfuz by Euphoria..... BINGO..... I mean I have never felt so happy/satisfied as when speeding on the new bike... listening to the song.... streaching out my hands when the bike is in full speed...... specially in the part of the song when there's a line like... voooo uuuu oooooo.... Its the best thing that has happened to me in days... and seems that it would last long...
Aneways there's another side to the above story... the lyrics of the song suit my present situation very well..... look at how the song starts:
aadat padi hui thi inhe intezar ki......
and then he says:
aur pehle se bhi jyada teri yaad aayi hain....
and then there's the frustration in love pouring out when he says:
Saatvan hi ho janam ye
Jaane bhi de
Jaane bhi de
Jee loon ab main zara sa
then there are more lines:
isme tum hi rehte the na...
fhir yeh ghum kyun...
aakhen nam kyun...
kya booon main kya na....
ab ke sawan aise barse....
teri akhiyaan
aason terse...
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Nice Tag
Early in the sunday morning... mess is open until an hour... the toilets will have water in an another 30 mins... newspaper vala will come in an another 90 mins... got nothing better to do... so decided to take this Tag although I haven't been tagged.... :)
So here it goes:
Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.
Hence what gets stored in i is 3. Exactly opposite happens
Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Barely able to reach the door
What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Really don't remember.... It was about an week ago
Without looking, guess what time it is?
15 minuets to seven
Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
6:47 am
With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
wind chimes
When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
10 mins a ago. Went to the toilet, but in vain. Thakx to water department.
Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
looked at the nameen on the table... but couldn't eat it as I haven't brushed... :(
What are you wearing?
Tshirt and shorts
Did you dream last night?
I had a sound sleep. Didn't dream anything.
When did you last laugh?
while talking to mom and dad last night.
What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Last sems's timetable, some dennis posters, B'Day card I got from home last year and a mirror
Seen anything weird lately?
www.wired.com
What do you think of this quiz?
Time pass, but not that interesting.
What is the last film you saw?
Rang De Basanti, courtsey British Airways.
If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A dish Antenna so that I can have high speed internet all the time, aquaguard and water cooler so that I can have cold water all the time, will buy one of the outlet of DUKE or Old navy, so that I can wear a different T-Shirt everyday and never will have to wear it back, rest of the money I will give to my dad.
Tell me something about you that I dunno.
She is back on my desktop.
Do you like to dance?
Yes
George Bush
I hate all americans alike.
Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Mannat, I don't know why but the name just struck.
Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I can't think of a good name now... maybe his mom might be more interested then. :)
Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yeah, but given my parents also decide to move in with me.
What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Congratulations, you have done a god job. Now its your time to rest, in peace.
and I tag:
WhoamI
Tinni
Golpee
Shaunak
and anyone vella like me having nothing better to do, you are most welcome to take the tag.
Friday, July 21, 2006
The TRUTH
Although my thoughts have been going either ways but today I admit that I am in no better position than last summer and will continue to be the same. But on the other hand I would not make any effort to be in touch... I love the way I am.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Back to Kgp
It seems the Indian government has started blocking blogspot. I mean you can open blogger but can't open any links having the word blogspot in it. The reason given for this is that terrorists use blogger to share information... now what the fuck is this.... they even use telephone for sharing information... lets block those... they might even use yahoo chat.. gtalk... or even email services... so lets block all of them... I mean this is atrocious.... It shows a weakness on the part of government.... and whoz brilliant idea was this.... I mean you have a rocket scientist as your president and an economist from oxford as your primeminister and even the there is 50% reservation in the primier schools of the country and sites like blogger are being blocked... where's this country headed... I sometime feel that we all should join the politics and bring this country right on track...
Current Music:
Well I am listening to mitwa from Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna... it a nioce song... and Chirayu I haven't listened to the link you sent me because the net speed in IIT sucks... may be next year on an internship... :)
Microsoft:
Now you can track your delivery from fedex, ups and dhl from MSN Search. I mean you goto MSn Serach and type thing like Where is my Fedex Package xxxxxxx, delivery status dhl package xxxxxxxx and will be returned the status of your package... cool isn't it. Read more here.
Did you ever had a forward in which a pen did the whole work of an computer. On one of the surface it would project a keyboard and on the other surface it would display an monitor and the cpu would be in the pen itself... now all this is becoming true with Microsoft's PlayAnywhere Technology... look here for more.
Monday, July 10, 2006
Some interesting things abt Google
Too much in the future... okkk so lets go into the past.... here's the webpage of google when it was first launched in 98.
Want some Gmail skins... Download them from here.
Heard something about the Google online OS. Read more here.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Sensor Map delivers Real time Data
The web search you do, may it be Google or Live, but its on static data. Ever wondered how the things would change if we could search real time data. Read this post and you will know about it. I really like the above idea and could be reality in the near future. Some more similar links:
Microsoft plan to map world, Real Time.
How to Build a Smart World
SenseWeb Project
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Just Back!!!
personal:
Congrats to her for getting an PPO. Wishing you all the success in future.
A special thanx to Amol.... nice to find a good friend.... and thanx for for all the stuff you have done for us.
I have become a fan of WalMart. Its one of the top 5 companies in the world and has employes more people than US army.... awesome..... will do some research and will come come up with more facts.
Google:
It has made to the top of the Wired 40 companies list. Apple Stands at 2nd spot, infosys at 11th and Microsoft at 36th position.
Do you also find Google as interesting as me. Write to them then or read this post.
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Google again
Also Google has launched its Google Desktop Gadgets Contest. Prizes worth $8000 to be won, ends on 31st july.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Different Things
Starting from this post I will label all my posts at the begining with something meaningful which will describe their content in one word.So I start by:
Double Meaning :)
Got this mail from parang toady, makes a nice read
Ever Wondered..How wud sum common english sayings translate in hindi???too good hai
Have a nice day! - Achcha din lo!
What's up? -Uppar kya hai?
You're kidding! -Tum bachcha bana rahe ho
Yo, baby! What's up? - Beti Yo, uppar kya hai?
Cool man! -Thandaa aadmi!
She's so fine! -Woh itnee baareek hai!
And the best ones are.....
How do you do? - Kaise karte ho?
Keep in touch....chhute rehna
Google:
Read this post. This is my kinda stuff. But aneways will have to admit that Microsoft have much better interface be it live search, live homepages, blogs . Google has to to something here and that too fast!!
And why doesn't Goolge(blogger) incorporate something so as to save the posts as we are writing them... just as it does with Gmail... I had lost this post due to some error and its then the idea struk... kuchh karo... kuchh karo Google.... kya kar rahe ho...
Personal:
Today is the first time I felt that my stay here should have been longer... damm!!!! basiclly I have started on a new project here... and its kinda good... but only 3 weeks are left.... and I dont wanna leave it incomplete, becuz the results could be wonderful, becuz kgp sucks, becuz I will have to clean my room , remove atleast 1kg of cowwebs, attend classes :((.... beta zameen pe aaja.... aneways my prof is also leavin town from so I am pretty sure that the work will be incomplete... subak... subak..
Finally I can't wait to buy a Ipod, although I haven't been paid till now, but I will spend the last few remaining $$s tomorrow... I am thinking of buying Ipod Nano 2GB... Black ofcourse....
and haan after a long time today I am listening to punjabi song... and as I am writing this post I am a dancing a bit too... :D, as you may have known tilll now... headsets in my lab simply rock!!!!
and finallt yaar meri angrezi bahut kharab hain yaar... log to kya dhansu angrezi main posts likhte... ki kuchh palle nahin padta... ab mujhe kuchh karna hoga... instead of Google... any sugsestions???
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Current Music
Monday, June 19, 2006
Share your Calender
One Year!!!!!!
But whatever happens, happens for a good. is that true??? what good was done last year!!!! I can't realy figure out. :(..... but stiill I wonder that how come two unlikely events ocoured at the same time. The first one being me telling her, which ofcourse needs a full blog for descreption :), and the second one, me misreading my ticket... I mean its really unlikely... but then ... it happened.
As I am writing this blog, I am reliving that night, so happy I was after declaring my feelings, but then came the twists and turns which really made it an anticlimax. But amazingly, somehow I still remember her smile, the one thng I had fallen for. I can close my eyes and see her smiling.
Now all I can hope is not writing a similar post, same day next year and what I need is luck and support from ur side. Atleast this, can be expected from all of you.
Friday, June 16, 2006
Om Jai Google Hare !!
Swami Om Jai Google hare
Programmers ke sankat, Developers ke Sankat,
Click main door kare!!
Om Jai Google Hare !!
Jo Dhyawe vo pawe,
dukh bin se man ka, Swami dukh bin se man ka,
Homepage ki sampatti lawe, Homework ki sampatti karave
kasht mite work ka,
Swami Om Jai Google hare!!
Tum puran seach engine
Tum hi internet yaami, Swami Tum hi internet yaami
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Thursday, June 15, 2006
Tales continue 0.4.0
Finally installed IE 7 today. Its good, specially it has tabbed interface, which was the least thing required. Its bloking popups too and has better look and feel than mozilla. But the problem is that it doesn't have as many extensions as mozilla, but I don't use any so its fine for me. Ther's one difference but, when you open a new tab in mozilla, its usually the last, but in IE7 its next to the window its opened from.
Chalo I got a leave, got to watch the game between Miami Heats and Dallas... NBA is damm good to watch. Adios!!!!!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
Tales Continue 0.3.0
Well its sunday afternoon, just finished ironing all the clothes that I had washed las week.... I hate ironing becuz its boring and monotonic...... hope will not be the same after I get an Ipod.... but for that the SSN number will have to come and so waiting and hoping...... Tell u what, its not really afternoon, its 7 in he evening, but the sun sets late so even 6 or 7 pm here, seems like 3-4 pm of India....
and haan wanted to write abt ponds..... Gaurav... he has been here with me...... for the past 3 weeks now.... one thing... he's a snail.... subah aaram aaram se brekfast khata hain.... he takes a bite and then thinks...... thinks...... and finally the next bite.... I hate this becuz we are always late for work.... but people are the way they are..... right at this very moment.. .. he is ironing... and for the past 1 hr he has done just 2 shirts and a pant I suppose.... :D, but khana ek dum first class pakata hain... so cant really complain.... no no a really peace guy to live with.... enoying a lot wit him..
Went to a mall yesterday.... and as u know I am a tshirt freak.... brought 2 from old navy... given the fact I have many already..... I cant really resist this tempataion...... one is white, with collar... has some strips, although it was a bit oversize, but even then bought it, the second one is round collared blue in colour, says "always thinking", looks kinda nice....
5 weeks have past by in a flash and 5 more to go..... feeling kinda itchy.... means the comfortability level is going down.....not really missing home, not kgp also... but I dont know why am I feeling this way..... but one thing is clear to me... I will not go for a job straight away...... means I can't do work at somone else's whims and fancies.... happened last week... after my initial project ended, prof gave me some work I didn't like, so took a whole week to do the work insted of just 2 days..... and whats the point qualifing, one of the most difficult public exams, knowing that u have it in you, and the settling down for a job, just becuz its fast cash...... I mean there aren't many people who get to do what they really want..... I have had talks with seniors who say... yaar is company main mat aane agle saal... bahut boring kaam hain..... and then following a 9 to 6 schedule for their boring work.... I mean what the fuck.... atleast taking the other option will have the advantage of me doing whatever I wish....... lets see what happens....
The reason that I am writing al this crap is, I have noting else to do..... can't call india... it will be early moring there.....nothing is coming on TV...he he ... something happend... will tell ya later.. gtg.... starbucks calling bbye.
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Thursday, June 08, 2006
A Day of Emotions
Aneways came home had dinner and slept at 4 and then back to work at 9:30...... now the good things started to happen.... first my mentor came down and gave me the TR I had been writing(or say editing) for the last 4 days and told me that he has converted it to latex, changed the grammer a bit and wanted a final review...... yo it was my turn now..... I was the one who was to find the errors and not correct them..... and finally by the end of the day I was able to get it published/accepted in UTEP and now its official.... you can accaess it here , #26.
now about the biggest surprise of the day..... theres one girl whom I love/adore.... but it isn't the same from her side..... doesn't matter.... usually I visit her Orkut profile as often as I visit mine..... no wonder my "who visited ur profile" option is off :).... I had always thought that even if I get one pic of her from some where.... I will be a happy man.... I had this desire from a long time... but its today that it came true.... yes while blindly searching some of her friend's album I got her pic..... wow!!!!! I was awestruck..... I kept looking at the pic for atleast 5 mins.... how to describe..... she had her breathtaking smile, was looking simplistic as always... just as I had always imagined.......and all the events from previous year summers were flashing by.... then the thoughts that if were together by any chance..... wow!!!! what a life would that have been....and at this very moment as I am writing I am so exited that I can't type.... :)... but right then my guide walked in and started discussing my next project..... who was listening to him.... My mind was in the pic... wow..... my dream had come true..... I got what I desired.... as he went out of the room... i dld the pic.... edited it and made it my wallpaper.... told Tinni abt it....
Whole of this time I was listening to the song She Will Be Loved.... by Maroon 5... its a beautiful song.... seems it was written for me... an the music awesome... and even now as I am writing this blog, its playing.... I found this song on Chirayu's Blog... thanx Chirayu.... u can dld it from here
Now as I head home, happy and cheerfull, the weather too agrees with me. Usually when I walk back home at 6pm, its sunny... but today it was cloudy.... and this place rocks when the weather is like that..... passed by the gardens with the sprinkler on.... hands in pocket... murmuring the song I had been listening all day..... just like the scene that comes in hindi movies before a romantic song... but sadly there was no romantic song to follow.... I am not that lucky!!!!! landed home,and yes finally the AC is working.... yoooo.... the AC was not working from the last 2 weeks and I was having sleepless nights....... but the good part of the whole day ends here... realized that it was my turn to cook... I hate that thing.... but cooked chana and rice... turned out to be decent... but while cooking I was still thinking about the snaps.....why was I so happy today.... TR is not a big thing... no one cares about a damm fucking technical report.... and y was I happy for the pic...... I have her pic not her.... and aneways we are not going to talk... not going to meet...... probably she is never going to think about me..... and her picture will make me more desperate.... where am I heading.... nowhere.....and the first thing I will see next morning is she smiling back at me.... damm I got to remove that wallpaper.... I am heading the same road as I used to warn others about... what!!!!!! dude u got to move on...... there much more to life than repenting over what you don't have..... probably the segmentation fault was good... it had me engrossed, it challanged me..... made me think, got me tired and eventually I had a good nights sleep without having any energy left to thing about her...... the segmentation fault was better.... :(
some lines from the song I really like....
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Sunday, June 04, 2006
continuing
And even if I mail her she's not going to reply... so whats the point in mailing her..... but what a lucky person she is.... wow!!... there are at least 2 people who love her from their heart..... wow kaash mere saath bhi aisa hota.....
aneways.. I know tomorrow morning I will notfeel the same... but that doesn't mean my feeling for her will change... but I will continue to be strong as I have been and will not break this golden silence.... and ya luv u blog.... u have always been there for me.. :-*
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Tales Continue 0.2.0 Colorado road trip
Lets start from the first day. We left on friday evening. There were 5 of us, Gaurav( apna kgp vala), Sunil (My room mate) and Amol and Uphar ( Sunil's friends). We rented a car and it was a caravan. Masto car... had automatic closing doors, power points for every seat , large and spcious. While the plan was to leave around 5:00 pm but we are Indians by birth and will continue to do so. So we started at 7:30 after loading the caravan with an ice box full of coke, water, chips and yes a Laptop. Well this was new to me. Never before I had travelled with a computer by my side. Aneways we started and soon different people were enjoying differently, peeche vaale started watching a movie, I was enjoying my role as a DJ and Sunil was enjoying the drive. Finally after 8 hrs of continuous drive we reached pubolo and stayed there for a night
The next day we were up early as we had an tight schedule. The first place we went to was abt 1.5 hr drive from pubolo, the Rolyal George Bridge in Canon City. It is the highest bridge in the world and is built over a canyon. It was a amzing site looking down the bridge. The place also had some amazing rides but due to the lack of time and the adventure of the next planned activity we didn't even tried to have one of those. We just rushed to our next destination. The next destination was white water rafting. :D. We reached the place, wore our gear and then were escorted to the river, During the way our guide told us about various things that might happen during the raft and how can we save ourselves. But I was charged with Adreline. No fears and never had a thought that any thing bad would happen. The river side was beautiful. There were mountain on two sides and the stream between them. It was a kind of valley. But the scene was awesome. The weather was with ous. There was no sun, just the clouds above and the cold chilling water below. The raft ride was again nedless to say amazing with some awesome pictures. We emerged from the water, thrilled and satisfied. These 2hrs were the most amazing ones till now. Back to the rafting place we changed and headed back to our new destination, The Seven Falls, Colorado Springs. It was an hour drive from canon city. The place Colorado Springs was awesome. The houses, the sorroundings, the weather all awesome. Finally we reached The seven Falls. This is a water fall which has seven different falls and during the evening time there is computerized lighting giving seven different colours to the waterfall.... Ya again awesome.... had a nice evening there took lots and lots of pictures.... and then finally winded up the day. But who knew that we still had things in store for us. Our plan for the night was to head to Denver. So we were enjoying a pleasent drive, satisfied as we had done lots and lots today and just hoping to reach Denver as soon as possible.
One thing I like about this place is that you can go anywhere easily with the help of google maps. Just type in the destination and the starting point and then its google who will take u there. But I don't what happened we realized that we were in the wrong direction. We had to go towards Denver but the sign boards were saying something else. When we realized this, we had already come about 68 miles from Denver and now had to head back. Ufffff!!!!!!!! our tired souls decided to drive back ince there was no othre option. Well I consoled everybody saying that a trip cannot be perfect, so something had to go wrong. Its good that nothnig bad happened. Everybody smiling was now ready to go. During the journey back I was sitting in the passenger seat besides the driver and Amol was sitting behind happy, as he had had a couple of beers. Every thing was going fine. Suddenly a car came from behind , towrds my side and Ran into our car. BUMP!!!!! was all I remembered. But nothing much happened. We all were safe and so was the other car. The driver came to us asking whether we all were right and all of us, thake haare, were confused as to what was going on. She said lets not stand here because it was a highway and we should stop at he next highway. But something struck me. I asked Uphar to note down her car number in case.... but where the damm pen!!!! "write on mobile... jaldi jaldi...... was what I suggested it. Now as expected the girl escaped and didn't know what to do. We stopped at some place. Now we had two options... either to call the cops and report the accident or not. We should de so becuase the car was on rent, although it was covered under insurance but still its US and you got to do whats right. But on the other hand Amol had his name on the drivers list for the car along With Sunil so if we call the cops there was a chance that they would say that Amol was driving and since he was a bit drunk, he caused the accident. In that case all of us would be screwed.... now what to do.... sabki phati hui thi.... none of us wanted to get into the jhamela with the cops as this was US and not India..... ab kya karen.... finally after a 30 min long dicussion we arrived at the conclusion that we will not call the cops and continue with the journey.
All of us were wondering that how the situation tured around. Saala subah itne mazze kiye aur ab sab ulta phulta ho raha hain.... and jab bhi kisi police vaale ki gaadi baju se nikalti thi lgta tha yeh humare liye hi aa raha hain.... sabki phati hui thi...... so we decided to stop where we were as it was enough for one day.
The next day we had plans to wake up at 5:00 am but the toll we had taken last night was against it. We woke up at 10:30 knowing that theres nothing much that we can do today.... so decided to make the most of it..... called up friends in El paso to search for an indian resturant here in Denver, and so the it was afternoon that i had the best lunch after coming ti US... an Indian Buffet... wow!!!!!! stilll smells yummy. aneways after the luch we decided to watch the movie Fanaa but the show was not till 7:00pm.... thus went to Dave and Busters..... its a place where there video games and stuff.... ek dum masto jagah hain.... finally after having a really good time at this place we headed to the movie...... chand sifarish jo karta humari...... :D, the movie...... the first half was nice and the second half sucked. Don't watch it as a moive , but go for it if u r a Kajol fan because she's looking tooooooooo cute and sexy in the movie..... and ya the song are nice...... and yes we also had samosa during the movie instead of popcorn.... and with that our Indian day came to an end.
Finally the last day we had to go futher north, abt an hour's drive to the rocky Mountain natinal park. This place was heaven on Earth. I really don't have the words to describe it.... see it ur self in th pictures.... loved it... and have decided to come here for my honeymoon..... and then at 7:00 pm in the evening yesterday we started our drive back home which is a 12hr drive if we don't stop and I and Gaurav had to be at work at 9:00 so the deadlines were tight.... aneways we made to home at 8:15 and i came to work an hr late today at 10.... wowwhat an weekend.
some stats:
travelled abt 3200 km in 3.5 days in car
took about 450 pictures
the minimum temparature we experienced was 37 F.... ya F not C :) and that too in summer clothes....
the fun Unlimited!!!!!
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Tales continue.... 0.1.0
Now lets begin..... one thing I don't like is that people on Orkut have changed their names to "firstname" in US "Last name" or "firstname" in "company name" "Last name"..... what the fuck is this....common guys grow up..... 1/10 of the world is in US..... and being in US for internships is not that big achievement........doesn't requires advertisement of this scale... we all know this..... and one thing that struck me the most was.... name says ... "so an so" in US "so an so"... and the first line in the about me coloumn says... I am modest.... down to earth person..... now this is the height.....
Secondaly, after coming here I feel my mom has become more possessieve about me....every time I call she seems to be worried... I don't know whether this is the same for all the guys but I don't like it... But the I can't tell my mom to chill out.... she will become more worried.... aneways I have the feeling I should behave as normal as possible to avoid any panic at home...
Anoher thing, my roommates are damm good!!!! they give me their laptop..... prepare the food, and treat as just another kid living with them.... and I really like this.... today in the evening I was feeling a bit bored and had a headache..... so went to Kumar( he is the person with whom I have been in touch before coming here) and had a beer... sar dard gayab.... he he .... vaise mentioning abt he room mates I will mention that Gaurav is not an South Indan as I had said in the last post and had promised him to mention specially in the next post..... and Kumar... rocking guy man... U can never be bored with him..... and Sunil...... nice, calm, quiet and a very helpful guy....
about the work.... just started it... vaise I have a clear understanding as to what is to be done.... and is to be done In C for the time being..... so no jitters for now... vaise I have managed to impress my guide daily in these 2 days.... dekho aage kya hota hain.....
and about Kgp... seems a surprise to me that I will be getting a 9.0+ this time.... pata nahin kaise... time to mila nahin tha padne ka.... aneways... its nice
and finally I will be going for a party at my prof's home tomorrow.... Kumar whom I mentioned before is graduating and theres a celebration for the same... chalo dekho kya hota hain in americans ki party main... tata for now!!!!!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
El Paso tales!!!!
Now london Heathrow was a delight to the eyes... really lag raha tha ki kahin foreignva land main aa gaye hain... but meri to fhai hui thi ticket ko lekar.... finally went to the british airways counter and got all the boarding pass... and the guy assured me that I will get my tickets in chicgao.... aneways then chilled out on the airport...
Then took a flight from London to chicago... ya I know sunne main bahut accha lagta hain...london... Chicago.... but tha bhi bahut accha... aneways the point is that none of the airhosttess till now were great and I felt cheated, because Kingfisher airlines back home have better ones.... aneways British Airways had LCD screens for every seat and I watched garam masala on the way from Delhi to London and friends , Joey from London to Chicago..... also the point to be noted is that I had never ever traveled before in a plane so my exitement had no bounds.....
Then El Paso... the Univ here is based on some bhutanian arhitecture... and is really nice... damm good I should say and the best part is that the Latino girls here SimplY Rock.....and with the Texas summers round the corner the fun is going to get multifold... because as it gets hot the clothes will get shorter... he he...
Well on the first day I met my guide... He is a nice person... told me what I was required to do... although I didn't understand much of it..... but still seems the summer will be fruitfull.... he showed me my working place..... wow... masto lab... theres a key pad lock to open it its hi tech... I have 21" LCD screen to work on and the net...damm fast.... but the first day was wasted in confusion as the officials had never dealt with anyone who came just for 10 weeks... lets see what happens tomorrow
I am staying with some indian guys here... they are nice people... all south indians... but are really helpfull... testerday I went to a place called subway and the food there rocked... also went to wal mart... nice place.... and the goods are really cheap... the elecronic goods.... the watches... really cheap... had to restrain myself... waiting for the day I will get paid.... also saw IPod nano in material form and my love for it increased.... Damm!!!! when will I get my first pay...
Finally went to the library today...:D... haan haan padne hi gaya tha... :D :D ... people here have exams from tomorrow...so just went in to check the junta... and the library was really COOL.... sit where you want.. as you want... o what you want.. you cn carry you bags.. laptops.... ipods and every thing you want... and the place was really cool..... the bandis... damm hot man.... the place where I was sitting or lying down had a vaccant sofa in front and after a some time a blonde came.... and slept there on the sofa... she was wearing skirts... he he... bas aur nahin bataunga... had real masti tonight... then the walk from the school to the apartment was also nice.... reminded me of KGP.... chlo me going to call home... tata for now bbye!!!!