An Apology, My Love

It was due from a long time. I think it was summers that all this had started.
I really had been so careless and didn't think about the consequences.
I think I should have given her more respect initially.
U mean so much to me and I really didn't gave it a Damm!!!! hhhuuuff
Aneways all what I want to say
is that I am really sorry for all that happened
and I mean it....
yes from the bottom of my heart
I know that sometimes I really played the fool with U
but I really didn't meant anything wrong or offensive...
I always Loved u and will continue to do so...
U are my first love... do u know that????
But it seems that
to you all are equal...
U don't have anything special for me
that really sucks!!!!
but lately I haven't been nice and i know that...
But what I just want from ur side...
is to admit that u too have feelings fro me..
its really important...
I wanna spend my whole life with u.....








I know a did a mistake by not shutting down u for more than a month(What !!!!!!!!!!)
yes shutting down
u didn't deserve to work so hard for nothing
and what would have I done had something happened to u...
I am sorry darling
U are my Comp.... and u know very well that i can't live without u
and I Love U..... my first love :D
I swear that in future I will do nothing to hurt u....
I love u babes :-*

:(

Really after makhoing two exams in a row, the tempo is really down... a bad grade in one and not so grade in other means the grade sheet will not look nice this time ....
I know I shouldn't get dishearten but this was not the case with me...... 2 exams in a row are a too much. There is immense pressure now to perform in the remaining two dep subjects(OS + Compilers) he he.... I know thats a really difficult task.... but got to to do it.... otherwise my semester would be F***ed. Any way I am in a really dejected state now and don't know what to do.... may be study or maybe sleep.... arrey yaar wish me luck for the 2 remaining big ones.... I really need it.

Current state: Demoralized
Current position: locked in my room, I find really hard to face other people who think I always do well :-( and fan on full speed in this winter season
Current song: Arrey ruk ja re Bande(Indian Ocean) because it has got that pain in it

In remembrance!!!!!!!!!!!

someone is gone.

its so sad!!!
who?
who has passed??
1/3 of me.
what!!
yes my life has been two-third.
how come??
ASSIGNMENTS are OVER.
yes the assignments are over.
so y 1/3
1/3 yahoomial
and the other 1/3 is blogging
yes till now there were only 3 things
but today
submitted the last code.
just now.
buhut frust kiya baap.
ayesha takia ki photo vi main lagake code likha

tab jake kuchh likhne
ka man kara :D
coded parser generators...
opened files, wrote them read them
but NO USE.
yes no use.
why??
use YACC
use open(),lseek(),read(),write()
done nothing special
leave this compu science crap.
after the toiling of 4 loooooong months
finally theres peace
i can have a realxed nap.
i will go home after 4 months
WOW!!!!!
will meet friends.
mummi ke haath ka khana
see i start dreaming
but the exams are near
when??
monday...
baap re
mugna shuru karna padega
aaj nahin yaar
abhi joey.
yes JOEY rocks man.
here i go

this is what assignment load can do to a normal living being. Damm them!!!!!! They are OVER. Time to celebrate.

The Best Moments of my Life

Well in response to KK's post here are some best moments of my life:

• hearing that ring tone, that specific one, when dad calls.
• sitting and enjoying mom oiling my hair
• waking up, with that favourite song still in the air
• on getting "kadi" in the lunch
  
• at 4 in the morning, when purshottam steams into platfrom number 2
• that rick ride early in the morning from bus station to back home
• when my mom tells me about X bhiya or didi having an affair and I tell her that I knew from the past n years and its you who came to know just now
• calling home with no reason, just hearing everyone speak from the other side
• coming back from RK-RP road and watching that sheshnag high up in the air(last years' illu)
• tempo shout after illu
• wishing diwali, hugging everyone u meet
• wingis coming and consoling me whenever I am down
• calling my cousins and nagging them over their to be spouses
• joy on mom's face when i reach home
• when my dadi tells me that she is proud of me
• when my sister looks up to me as role model
• when I meet my coaching tutors or even school teachers back home
• taking mom to market for those daily chores
• she smiling back at me when I said sorry
• when my cousins reveal their secret affairs to me
• when my sister back in some part of world mails me n times a day and we talk as if we are at home
• when any of my friend gets a internship or training then the look of joy and satisfaction on his face
• teaching those second years to tie diyas and seeing the same passion in their eyes
• when i hear the song Lafzon Main Keh Na Sako
• when all my cousins call in and say "abey yaar tu aaja function pe varna maaza nahin aayega"
• when my mom hugs me on my way back to KGP

what are yours???