This one is for me, myself

There are 2 people A and B.
Why does A think that is the best in business and if B is not like him, he can, being one step up in the hierarchy ,can say anything to B.
If B is not A then he is DIFFERENT and doesn't want to follow A's footsteps for his own reasons.B wants to take the other route becuz he thinks its the right one for him.
I wanna remind A that from B's point of view A is a WASTE but since B has his lips stitched , it is good mannerism that A keeps shut.But since A keeps on barking all the time, it is a testimony to the fact that "A is a waste".
And moreever since A pointed out that B is like C but C is not as disappointing as B ,B wants to make it clear to A that he just wants follow his own way and doesn't want to be like C , whom B respects a 1000 times more than A.
A should clearly understand that different people are different and even if a group of people have some common link between them, it is NOT necessary that all of them be the same.
and if A thinks that there is no one to care about B, and A's world is the best, B would like to tell A that there exist some people who care a lot for him, and he lives in a much better world then A.
also B prays to god that he never faces A again , becuz if he does then ,it would be very difficult for him to be behind his mask of respect for A and once this mask gets torn the consequences will not be good.



Aneways just wish me luck for my "8" credit course exam which is due tomorrow.

Confessions Of A MAGGU Mind.....................

today is the day that i have some confessions to make:
1.The biggest of all is that i confess i am a maggu, which means i have a natural tendency to mug only and try to run away from other things.
2.I am not as bright or a stud as i considered myself to b because even after so much maggai wht i can manage is just a meager 8.7 :-<
3.Except illu i have done nothing for the hall, which includes the following sub confessions;
I.going the itinerary wise i was called upon by vikram , to throw hammer during the athleticsevent , of which i did kanta saying that i have lab stuffs an all, and when today i heard that prakhar had gone to do it i feel really ashamed.
II.During the spring fest i had a lot of seniors telling me that be some head or sub head but i refused them all saying that i am not interested , but i actually did it becuz i thought i would waste a lot my time , and this was the thing that i was repenting all the spring fest.
III.I was on my WORST best during election campaining ,I had promised mallu that ane work u give me , will be done to the fullest of my abilities but when during the election time mallu came to me and asked to put those slips , i simply just escaped it even though he had reminded me of my previous promise.....(how could i be so bad).I regretted this on the day i needed some first Ist years to work for the dep farewell(Well deserved!!!!!!!!!!).
IV.This is the worst of all.Reddy had asked me to be present at the time of matkha phod during farewell day , but i just didn't come back becuz i was studying....damm shit studying what would have happened if i wouldn't have studied that day and after all he is one of my best seniors and i should have adhered to his call.That day was my worst day in RK becuz the feeling of guilt was hurting me like a stone in my shoe.
V.During the hall elections when modani had stood up for G.Sec Tech , i thought that what a damm fool he is but now i realize that wht do i do in my idle time?what is all i do except magai?i had no answer.I now realize that wht modani had told me(if u have time dont waste it just do something) was very correct, and he has taken the right step.
VI. Even the open software had given me ample chance to do something for the hall , which would be related to my field but that too i didn't do.


I make these confessions all of a sudden becuz a talk today with the final year batch had a great influence on me.
One of the things they said just stuck me....the person who toils around and does something always works harder in exam period and comes to same level of those maggus like me who have been nothing but just magai the whole sem.I an quote me example here::it was in the third sem that i worked day and night for illu and with only 6 days for the end some i did good, but this sem i dont think even after all that magai i would be able to do something great.
I feel that instead if i would have shown some tempo in any of the above mentioned confessions , i would be a better person now and would not writing this stuff , when i should really mug.

But now i think what is gone is gone and i should look forward to the future and try not be in the same position after the next semester.
And to all those whom i had defied , plz dont take to your heart becuz i am really sorry for what i have done and would try to improve next time ,specially reddy.
I know yhat i am a very bad person but i think that its never late to improve.......

The wheel moved on

Today at the tea party it was an expected but rather un-contemporary scene. I saw the big shot seniors taking a back seat and some guys from the third year batch taking their place.It was unusual to see prakhar da, sandeep and all not speaking , but just hididng in a corner as if they were first time in the common room.But it was also nice to to see that their rolls had been taken upon some of the responsible guys .
Well this was going to happen some day, but i saw a glimpse of it today and realized that the time has passed on since we had entered for our tea party. Till now i had no idea of how the life would change after the senoirs pass on , but today it was in front of me and let me tell u that its going to be difficult, atleast for me ,not to see those similar faces again.
bye bye final years.
wish u the best in life.

Dont know wht to say

I only want to say that i didn't mean any wrong , neither i had any thing against u , but just didn't do it becuz i didn't feel like doing it.
I know that u would be hurt, but even if u r not , i have the feeling that i have done something which u least expected of me.
I have no other word except SORRY , and i hope that i wouldn't have to scribble the same thing again in future.
SORRY "R".
hope u don't take load.
current mood:thoughtful
current song:tu tu hain wohi dil ne jise apna kaha

For us boys..............

WARNING::this a material which has been written out of frustness which has been lasting longer then ever.read at ur own risk.
hey guys if u r sitting frust out there having nothing to do then do read the names at tinni's blogs http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com
while i was suggesting those names to tinni i was reminded of the days of my school and those coaching days .I was in a boys school so until 10 th had no encounter with the other type of species flourishing with us.In my coaching during 11th and 12 th there were some girls but i never used to talk to them.But i had my first crush on a girl in my coaching whose name is there in the list.But never had the guts to talk to her .I am still the same .i dont talk to girls or i usually hesitate in talking, specially to the iit girls ,except a few.
but the important point is that the question which tinni asked was wonderful.just try to remember 10 girl names, whom u had met before kgp.U will see that some of the sweet memories will flash and u will tru to remember every girl whom u had met since class I.
so friends if u have some names which are not in the list plz drop them in either my comment box or in tinni's blog.http://gulegulzar.blogspot.com

frust

Had one of the worst days of the semester...
got up early becuz didnt feel like sleeping::waited for an hour for the mess to open
went to lab in morning ::got jumbled in those 1/2 kg wires , in the end found that some signals were yet to be given and the things that were working last day refused to react
after the "great" food at mess found that fruit shop had noting worthy to offer.
slept out of desperation
tried to go to the lab in the afte but was thrown out becuz i had not switched off the kit :-(.
went for a 2 hour lecture of the "BEST" course this sem :-).ooooooffff
had a test of 8 kodi in the evening :: completely makhaoed it ::main aisa kyun hoon???
now sitting in a completely desperate mood trying to figure out wht to do the next few hours as i wanna do noting

pal pal hain bhari vo vipda hain aayi
mohe bachane ab aaoo raghurayi

HOLI -a tradeoff

Good points--
1.it gives good way out for the guilt inside u ;u can approach them directly , make them red and green ,say "i am sorry", and thats it.u r done .
And if u think u should have not done it , go for it , holi is ur day to make it up :-) .

2.It is actually the of the year when u get to see lots and lots of colour around and such an atmosphere gets u going.

3.U get to visit the girls hostel and then blh blh.........

4.for those gourmands out there:: u get to eat mithai and ghujiyas if u r at home but if u r in kgp u have to be satisfied with the "gymkhana ladoos" and if u wanna eat "roosgullas" then try ur chance at matkha fhod

5.if u really hate someone then fancy ur chances ::u can discolour them those sticky shades of gold and silver::put colour in their hair ::completely tear off the remaining clothes:or even stuff their mouths with mithai stained with all the colour(no i have not even tried one of the above but have seen it :)) .

6.all "that" stuff is made legal ::u get bhang and.....and.....

7.if u haven't had a acquaintance with somebody till day ,try a hello, colours and talking..
one important corollary of the theorem #7 is that if wanna propose somebody , its a good time to for it(but i dont y this tautology proved wrong last year :-( .

well the points that i dont like--

1. u have to get up early about 10:00 on a holiday which is not at all possible for me.

2.if u dont get up u r waken up a bucket of water splashing on ur face and in the process of making a mess of ur already messed up room and u thinking who the hell will clean.

3.holi is infectious :: once u see the colour all around and the junta with so much tempo u tend be one of them.

4.u dont care about yourself::that colour in ur could have dangerous consequences::u could catch cold or even fever playing with so much water(ok i think i have exaggerated this one a bit).

5.but the worst part comes after the play is over::with the sun coming down hard on u now u got to clean yourself and now comes the first time of the day when u start hating water and just want to sleep.but u cant.so u eventually go to have a bath and find there is no water .yo HMC!!!

what do u do now??
u cant go to ur room and no one will allow in their room.
so u go and sit peacefully under a tree in ur hall garden , tired and drowsy.

6.And when u eventually bathe it seems like a while loop iterating for ever.no matter how hard u try u cant get that colour which hate to around with once the holi is over.

7.but its all not over after u get clean and ready.Either the mess is closed or it is well past 1:30 .


so as there r 7 each it now depends upon the weight u give to each one .
so guys follow ur heart and have a very prosperous holi.
HAPPY HOLI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do we think that way?

It was at one of those bhaat sessions at chedies i realized that how ignorant i was.We were having a discussion on how we could generate some amount to support our ever growing needs so as to off the burden from our parents.someone suggeted that lets calculate our expense and that was it .What followed was this:

31200/year our tution fees.
6200 hmc/year
12000 the hugga mess/year
20000 extra /year
these extra include canteen , chedies, biloos, treats,travel, daru, sutta,stationary and in some cases books :)) .
dont these extras sound too meagre.But lets continue....
all the above may not seem uncommon to us but wait..
just sum it up , it amounts to approximately 70000 Rs.
calculate the amount per month =6000 approx
amount per day =200 Rs.
YES 200 Rs PER DAY !!!!!!!!!!!
This is what our dear parents spend on us everyday hoping one day we will rise to the top of the world(Papa kehte hain bada naam karega beta hamara aisa kaam karega.............)
but what do we do in return ?
This is what a general kgpian does on a particular day----
1.sleeping in the class or better bunking the class and sleeping in the room
2.Chatting on YM/DC++
3.watching movies , f.r.e.i.n.d.s , life as we know it
4.doing bhajans
5.whiling away time on the net like playing orkut orkut
6.bhaating with wingmates
7.2.2 or chatting on golc or in cl with any sn specie he gets hold of..
8.hosting or listening radio or movie channels
9.writing blogs :))

but is this is what is expected of us?
I know that all of us r not of the above class but most of us r.
i know i may be sounding like a monotonic chemistry prof. giving his lecture on quantum chemistry ,but this is the truth that most of us dont want to come head to head with.
I also dont mean that we should not do any of the above activities , all of above are important but what want to emphasize is that in some corner of our mind we should have the realization that our stay here involves a substancial amount of money to be drained out from our parents' pokets and we should try to fully utilize it .
Many of us may be doing it but all of us are not.
Until that day i was not and even now i am not able to fully convert my time into fruitfull result.
But now at the back of my mind there is always a thought that today 200 odd Rs are being spent on me so why not do something worthwhile. Atleast i can attend all my lectures today if not do something else.
But even if we dont want to do this then why stay here wasting those precious 200 Rs a day and eating hugga at mess, instead we should be at home doing nothing and enjoying the delicious food giving our "IIT" status to someone else more worthy.

Too late.......

It was a realization that had dawned upon me today but i realized that it was too late to rectify.About 11 O'clock i was wondering how difficult would be the next 4 hours of my life....would i be able to do any thing worthwhile....or will the demons of sleep would again be curbing my thinking cells....but i was ready for everything when i heard someone uttering the words "you have done an irreversible damage to yourself by coming here and now you are at the hands of some people sitting high up the authority .If u want an peaceful life then follow the orders."My thoughts drifted towards my instinctive friends and wondered how they managed it!!!!(Good work guys).Amongst the things thrown at me for the past 45 minuets only one thing caught my attention "DAMAGE WAS IRREVERSIBLE".
Sitting on the last bench has its own advantages :u can let loose ur horses of imagination and drift into world of dreams.I was into one and thinking about how could this damage be transformed into something worthy , i heard a person (who it seems to me an automatic robot needing no energy resources , is triggered by the reception of voice and is intelligent enough to repeat the same thing in some "good loOking" words) person performing his instincts that got me an idea that if this fellow can then i also can.
I was inspired ,that helped me to passify the feelings of uncertainty about the battle to be faced. I was ready for it better then ever before and marched confidently towards my battle feild and first time in five months reached the battle feild early at 1:25.During the next hour i followed the pumping theoram and pumped all my energies into it , leaving no stone unturned.But all i received was rejection at the hands of someone highly respectable an made me realize the battle fought was futile.I gave it up to my counterpart for whom it was the same drowsy afternoon and he was in no way willing to give it fight.
We both were among the clouds of uncertainty when the robot was for the first time triggered in premises of the battle feild.The significance of those holy words "DAMAGE IS IRREVERSIBLE" was now clear to me , but now it was TOO LATE.......